I'd been obsessing over it for days. It didn't taste very nice, but I gobbled through it and left a quarter slice in the fridge for the microwave later.
Over the past six years, I've been on a mission to lose weight.
I did manage to lose about 3 stones, very gradually over a period of about two years.
I'm done to a size 14/16 from a 20/22.
I've still got about 2 1/2 - 3 stones to lose, but I've lost my mojo.
I've plateau'd for about 3 years.
I have apparently found the holy grail - I have kept the lost weight off and not gained any.
But like a food obsessed dog, I can't stop thinking about food.
A couple of years ago, I was diagnosed with ADHD-PI and I have been prescribed two of the most notorious appetite suppressants.
It doesn't stop me eating though.
The prescriptions have raised my already raised blood pressure and have made losing the extra three stones a priority.
I live in a God awful place with few, if any, counsellors, no OA meetings and my GP sees the headline weight and has decided not to refer me for ED therapy as my weight is constant.
I'm overweight but stable. I don't know how. If I'm not eating, preparing to eat or buying food, I am constantly thinking about it.
I work unpredictable shifts, so although WW or SW are possible, it would not be possible to go to regular meetings.
Looking back, I can't even fathom how I lost the weight I have done.
Has anyone found their mojo? Worked through their food obsessions? Found anything/anyone to help?