I wrote this last night and wanted to share for encouragement and possibly accountability.
After a pregnancy with ongoing sickness which was only relieved by eating and three months of maternity leave during which I've eaten everything I wanted, I now weigh 103.7kg. Last night I vowed, and promised myself, that I will never weigh this much again. My weight loss journey started today, 21st December. Not after Christmas, not on 1st January, today. I will make sensible food choices, allow myself to get hungry and try to assess whether a healthy person would make the same choice and what a "normal" person would think of my eating. No mad diets, meal plans or calorie counting, just healthier choices and a bit more exercise. It has gone too far - I am 3.5 stone heavier than when I got married 2.5 years ago (and I was overweight/ obese then), I could lose half my bodyweight and still not be underweight, my knees hurt when I go up and down the stairs, my shoulders and neck ache from the weight of my breasts, my legs aren't swollen, they're just fat, I'm a size 20 but that's in Asda's rather generous clothes (I haven't had the guts to check elsewhere), I am at increased risk of developing weight-related illnesses like diabetes, my BMI is one point off the eligibility threshold for weight loss surgery. And most importantly, I have a gorgeous baby boy who needs a healthy, happy mother and role model.
This is my promise to myself. The revolution started today!