I can't stop eating!

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I'm so angry and frustrated with myself! Started calorie counting when my baby was 4 weeks and was doing well losing steadily. DD is exclusively breastfed so was trying to manage my huge appetite and keep within my calorie limit (just over 2000 calories, so I definitely wasn't starving myself!) and of course I fell off the wagon and now I've gained back nearly all of the 19lbs I lost!

Why do I always do this to myself?! I'm nearly the heaviest I've ever been, I've had to buy new clothes as none of mine fit me, my DD patted my stomach and told me I have a baby belly. I can barely get off the settee and I'm in pain due to my weight-my knees ache and I can't walk quickly.

You would think I would take these warning signs and do something about it but I'm still eating loads of rubbish day after day! Mainly sugar and carbs, I'm addicted to sugar.

I would do low carb again to cut the sugar out but I'm still breastfeeding DD who is just over 6 months. I thought about exante but again I can't do that until I stop breastfeeding and DD won't take a bottle or a cup and still feeds a lot!

I've tried slimming world but it was too complicated and again I quit after two weeks.

I feel like I don't know what to do anymore, I caught sight of myself in the full length mirror today and I couldn't believe what I've done to myself how can I pick myself up when I can't stop obsessively eating? I want to stop breastfeeding as that's what's making me so hungry (plus I'm a greedy pig!) but DD will not give it up and I feel so stuck!

Can someone give me a slap and tell me what to do? I'm morbidly obese and a complete mess!

sending you love and sympathy.

I'm the same

one trick that helps me when looking at high calorie food is imaging the next door neighbours somewhat mangy looking handful of a dog has actually just broken into my house and vomited on it

Cut out the sugar. You can still have complex carbs, but go cold turkey on the chocolate, cakes, biscuits, sweets, cheesecake etc etc. Have 3 good balanced satisfying meals and 2 small snacks with a bit of protein a day. Once you kick the sugar habit then you can look at cutting calories. Oh and don't drink your calories.

Glad to know I'm not alone @coldrain2018

I feel like I have trigger moments when I eat rubbish, I can have the best intentions and start the day right and then after the school run I get home and suddenly I think "I'm hungry, second breakfast time!"

I'm so sleep deprived and also reward myself with sweets and chocolate when I feel like need a pick me up. Sometimes I try to imagine what a "normal" person would do, would they buy a huge bar of galaxy and a family sized bag of Haribo and eat them all in one sitting? Probably not, so try and be normal. Or I think, imagine what the shop assistant thinks of this fat pig coming to buy more crap? But it never stops me for long!

@SodTheBloodyLotOfThem sugar most definitely is the main culprit, I know that's what needs to go. I've done it before but I was low carbing so had lots of fat to keep the hunger pangs at bay.

I honestly think I just need my purse taken away from me so I don't buy it, I've started eating in secret when DP is out so even he doesn't know the full extent of it. I'm so ashamed of myself.

I am like this!

My friend actually installed my fitness pal in my phone for me and I thought I would never use it but I’m addicted!! It’s really easy to use and you can scan the food you eat - puts me right off eating chocolate and crisps etc.

Sleep deprivation is really hard work and it makes me binge eat. I dont have an answer but I have found by logging all my food it’s making me really think about what I’m eating.

It actually feels really good to feel proud of yourself that you have taken some control back on what you are eating.

Take care x

Honestly, you don't need to low carb. I guarantee (because I've done it myself, including the secret eating) you're not eating Galaxy and Haribo because you're hungry. Just quit the refined and processed sugars. Tell yourself second breakfast is fine but it's two boiled eggs and a slice of wholegrain toast, or it's a big bowl of nice warming porridge. Could you even leave your first breakfast until after the school run? Then you'll be genuinely hungry and will enjoy it.

Where and when do you buy the sugary stuff?

@Chosenbyyou i'be used MFP and do enjoy it, it just became tedious when I was cooking meals by scratch and weighing EVERYTHING so I worked out the exact calories. I think maybe I need to build recipes and use the calories as guidelines instead of logging every single thing in every single dish 

@SodTheBloodyLotOfThem the sweet food, normally if I go out with DD into town for a coffee or go to a baby group. I'll go to B&Ms and stock up on rubbish. I tell myself it's for DD but I know I'm buying it for me! I will try waiting until after the school run, sometimes I get the shakes if I get hungry and I feel like I need to eat straight away or I feel sick. I'm really worried about type 2 diabetes because I'm at the stage now where my weight is a huge risk. And getting the shakes that only go away if I eat something carb heavy like a sandwich worries me. They don't go away if I have a piece of fruit for example.

Sorry I sound like such a moaner by the way, I promise I'm normally a happy person! I've just been telling myself that I'll focus on weight loss when DD stops breastfeeding at 6 months but she will not give it up so I have no choice but to continue. And now I'm in pain and embarrassed to be seen by people!

Ok, so if you plan to go for a coffee just take the cash you need, so you can't go to B&M. Your DD doesn't need all that stuff either.

When I was breastfeeding I was so hungry and tired that I ate chocolate and biscuits because I think I craved quick energy and easy treats. I was also so thirsty. Be kind to yourself and think of healthier food that you enjoy, you are making food for another person and its hard.