I'm fat. I weigh 15st 9lb and I'm size 20/22.
I'm miserable. I'm embarassed. I'm ashamed. I'm unhealthy. I'm unfit.
I don't want to be fat because...
...because I see my reflection in shop windows and I have to look away.
...because I sweat with minimal exertion.
...because I feel uncomfortable buying clothes in my size. Especially if I try it on and it's too tight.
...because I am young (ish) but no one looks at me and thinks I'm pretty.
...because I cringe if my photo has to be taken at work.
...because I ache when I get out of bed.
...because I can't cross my legs when I sit down.
...because I can't fit my calves into my favourite style boots.
...because when I'm in my uniform I sweat so bed my knickers are wet and I get wet patches under my boobs.
...because food controls me.
...because I want to be happy and confident.