What great replies thank you. Really amazed at such support.
I think when I'm worried about work and super stressed, I can think of nothing else but my food reward either when it's over or even or even in anticipation of work. My weight, health, really doesn't matter at that point, my work is my only focus and then I seek reward as work winds me up! It's just really challenging to break that cycle, some useful advice here, thank you.
It's odd as when I'm calm food doesn't bother me that much, it's nice but I'm sensible. The soup idea is a great one, plus the bath idea as another great suggestion.
The really stupid thing is I can sit back and type this on reflection see what I'm doing but in the moment am unaware. It's just food yepeee. Need to calm down. My husband suggested having a bath and glass of wine, I have little ones to feed though and not sure I should start turning to alcohol!
It must be related to work as had a work from home morning, I was very pleased to not be going in then the realisation set in that there was much to do. I was straight in the bread bin. The really stupid thing is I can't see it coming, I thought that I was hungry or my appetite seemed huge and didn't think much of it at the time. On reflection I was stressed and wanting carbs. I love you2018 I can see the gym as being something that would work, I have children with me though.
The firstmrswinter interesting psychology, especially as I also suffer if I am working from home, and that was after a weekend of having lots of family here and then there was quiet work from home time- straight to the bread/chocolate/coffees. I'm sorry my post was evocative, I wish there was a stress free job out there but I think by fact we get paid to do it means there's stress involved.
It's still because when I am calm even the thought of eating lots seems ridiculous. I eat when hungry and sensibly (unlesss it's chocolate cheesecake but that's not around all the time ;-) ). Even the thought of making a huge saucepan of soup seems crazy as I think I won't eat all that - yet on reflection I eat loads more when in that frantic work mode. I can even be in that mode and think "this isn't being mindful" but it won't matter, I think it would actually be great to go for a run or something but that isn't an option. I also have injuries so can't walk or run in the same way as many years ago.
I can't give up work as my children are now old enough to be at school and go to a childminder. I also want to learn how to manage my own emotions.