Wake Up Call

[StayGoldPonyBoy]

Disclaimer: Very long and whiny

I've been trying to lose weight for the for the past year. I keep losing and gaining the same few pounds and it's incredibly demotivating. I'm actually 3lbs higher than my start weight currently. I realised today though I haven't really been bothered about actually losing the weight, I was just doing it because I'm a size 14/16 and 14 stone at 5"5 and I know I 'should' be on a diet.

Today though was a massive wake up call. DH suggested a lovely walk up to our local moor. Yep, good, love a nice walk in the country, what could possibly go wrong? Other than me sweating and sobbing at the top of a hill because I'm too unfit to handle it. I didn't even make it to the moor, you have to walk up a residential street to get to the trail

I felt absolutely minging. I was breathless after a couple of minutes and was so embarrassed by the state I've gotten into that it was making me cry. DH was absolutely lovely and kept telling me to take things slowly and that made me cry more. I don't want to be the hold up. I don't want to be lagging behind red faced and pouring with sweat, or unable to run about to play games, or walk up a bloody hill without keeling over. I don't want to hear 'Let's just wait here for mummy!' whenever we go on little adventures.

I'm no longer interested in my dress size or looking skinny at my friends wedding, I want to be healthy and strong and for my body not to feel heavy and my knees not to ache. I want to be able to keep up! I haven't quite decided how I'm going to do it, I've done Slimming World and Weight Watchers before and they're fine but boring, so any suggestions welcome if you've managed to stay with me this far! I've also joined the gym, and this time I actually give a shit. Did anyone else need an epiphany like this to kick start their losses?

My other half told me he was struggling to find me attractive, joined slimming world and lost 1.5st and he loves my smaller tummy. I did go to the gym quite regularly before but was never too good with my eating so I have been since!(ish!)

Get a Fitbit and try and do 10k steps a day

Couch to 5k is good too

Be kind to yourself and take it one day at a time

I joined a boot camp. The leader was a personal trainer who was into challenges like half marathons, hikes etc so I threw myself into that

She had an eating plan too so I eventually lost 5 stone and ran a marathon!

It cost a bit tho

After sleeping on it I think I am going to go for Slimming World again. Weight Watchers was ace because it was less restrictive but that slowly led to me cheating here and there and the weight creeping back up.

I'm going to try C25k as well, my stamina is obviously atrocious so I reckon it'll be a good place to start There's a 5k here in November so I'm considering signing up and aiming for that.

Hi, I lost 10 stones after hitting rock bottom, cut down on processed foods and sugar, move more it's that easy, slimming world and ww have their place but I cut down and did exercise, I don't want to pay money for someone to weigh me every week and after learning a tonne see slimming clubs as a waste of time, get the gym to do a proper body analysis as you will lose fat, gain muscle and gyms have people who know properly how a healthy body works, they are not just ladies who are taught about eating less. I now do Insanity Max 30 5 days a week and run twice a week, you can and will do it xx