Hit rock bottom

[Gemi33]

Hi everyone

I'm posting here tonight because I really am feeling terrible. I have always struggled with my weight and it does tend to go up and down but in the last few months I have put on a lot more weight in quite a short period of time. I have lost count of how many times I have started again and I feel like such a failure. I am now the heaviest I have ever been and I am so embarrassed. I look and feel horrible.

One thing that is really bothering me is that there is a guy that I really like who for various reasons (he doesn't live in the same place as me) I haven't seen since Christmas. Since then I have put on so much weight and I am too embarrassed to see him again. There is a chance I may see him in four weeks-ish and I have been sitting here thinking that even if I manage to stick with it I may only lose a few pounds in that time and that would mean I am still much heavier than the last time I saw him...I realise that I probably sound ridiculous because obviously that's still better than staying as I am or getting even bigger in that time but I think I just feel so low and disgusted with myself for getting into this position.

I really want to be positive and take control and I'd love to hear from anyone who has been struggling and wants to make a real change.

xx

Hi! I can understand how you feel. Since I had my daughter just over a year ago, I'm the biggest I've ever been and I get so fed up and down about it. I keep trying and trying and losing track again. Really struggling to lose and it sends me off track. But enough is enough now and I really need to do something.
Just on the note of the guy you like, I'm sure if he likes you, he won't care about your weight gain BUT I can imagine that this affects your confidence. It's hard.

I lost 8 and a half stone by counting calories and only coming off that for birthdays holidays and christmas.

I was at the stage i thought if i don't do this now i never will, i was approaching my 50th birthday and it was a turning point.

Two year later i feel amazing, I'm happier, i have loads of energy and life is just so much simpler when your not overweight!

However you need to do it long term and for yourself, not because of sum guy, or a wedding or a holiday etc do it because you need to sort it out for yourself, you deserve to feel healthy and happy with your body and by continually overeating when you know you have a weight problem is imo punishing yourself.

Thanks for the replies. popcornpaws in some ways I do feel like I'm punishing myself and I don't know why. I feel really low about myself and just miserable and yet I seem to have zero motivation to do something about it. I wish I could find some positivity. You have done so well, well done. I know that every few pounds help and yet it just seems such a mammoth task. How did you keep focused at the start when you knew you had so far to go?

I gave myself one year of eating 1400 cals (apart from birthdays etc) and told myself after the year was up id see where i was at etc.

I weighed myself weekly and never planned how much id lose, just let it happen.
I think its important not to put yourself under pressure by planning if i lose 2lb a week that means in 10 weeks i'l weigh… etc just stick to it and take whatever weightloss you get.

You will lose weight if you commit to it for say 6 month or a year and hopefully after that time you will feel so much better for it that you can maintain it for life.