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[Chinchilla]

Please can people on here get me back on track. I was losing weight really well, and then hit a blip. I have put a stone back on (lost 2st 2lbs). The blip occured because I hit a plateau period, and then tried to come off my ADs. It all went horribly wrong from there, and I literally cannot stop eating. I even considered making myself sick tonight, because I have eaten too much stuff today. Each night I promise myself that I will start again tomorrow (yes, famous last words, I know).

I just am at my wits end with myself. I do not want to put all the weight back on, because I long to be back at my old weight, and I had reached a point on my dieting campaign where I only had 1st 2lbs to go. The end was in reach, and I blew it big time. What can I say really? I have an eating disorder obviously (binge eating, but noi purging). I am either on a successful diet, or stuffing my face. I do not seem to be able to eat sensibly without keeping a tally of my daily calories.

It is all just getting me down now. My whole day revolves around whether I can get something sweet to eat or not. I don't feel satisfied unless I have something sweet, but I want more as soon as I have finished the last mouthful. Even when I am not hungry, I want to eat.

Please help me. How can I get over this? Should I see my doctor?

hi!!
as you may see from some of my posts in big/slim I am struggling with my weight too so can only give tips I try to follow. when you want something sweet, have you tried some cherries? they are in season at the moment and are sweet and juicy, they help give me a sweet boost and are quite filling too. Or a diet yogurt.

did your doctor tell you to come off the AD's? do you feel ready to come off? maybe the food is becoming your substitute.

If you want to try again with the diet, it can help you to remember you can do it, as you have done it before. You have just had a minor set back... a diversion say, but you can still get to your destination!!

as for going to see doctor, If you feel your doctor can offer some advice or support, why not also, if you do have an eating disorder it may be best..

I had to go back on the ADs champs, as I was not ready to come off them. However, the month at the lower dose made me have a very down period, which was the starting point for stuffing my face. Thanks for replying so quickly. The trouble is, I'm a seasoned dieter. I know all the tricks to dieting, but they are not working. I think that mentally I am just not in the frame of mind to diet. I need a MN kick up the bum!

Chinchilla,

sorry to hear you are feeling so bad.

How about joining us in the Slim Mamas Club. Knowing tat the result of your weigh in each week will be reveled on here masy be the kick you need.

Email your details to Demented at [email protected]. You don't need to give her your starting weight if you don't want to. Just email her with you weigh in reult on a Thursday or Friday and the results are posted on a Friday night.

hi there, how are you feeling today? i second madamebutterfly's suggestion, the slim mama's are full of good advice and motivation, I have only just joined but have lurked for ages and get alot of inspiration from them. Do you feel you are ready to diet at the moment?

Hope you start to feel better soon, please. keep us posted.

Thanks to those who have replied. I do not feel any better, but am a bit inspired by the programme 'You are what you eat' that I have just seen. It struck a few chords with me. I may lurk on the Big Mamas forum for a while, and see what happens. Things are still not good though, so don't expect marvels!

chinchilla, sorry you are not feeling better. Have you discussed this with your doc? Are you having counselling for the depression?

No Champs. I must speak to him, because maybe I need to up my dose even more. I have had two long terms of counselling in the past, and am all talked out. I think that it would not reveal anything more if I did it again.

I am of the opinion that I am mainly depressed because it runs in my family. Obviously I have had issues that have co-incided it, but it seems to be triggered by stressful situations (work, wedding, child) and exacerbated by the current issues (lack of money, family, no sex, no possibility of another baby). I am at rock bottom at the moment.

It is weird, because I can carry on as normal when with my friends, but when alone or just with dh and/or ds, I drop suddenly. It takes a really good friend to see that I am not my usual self.

maybe you are more yourself with your dh and ds but have to put on a brave front for friends.
please do try to talk to your doc. with regards to weightloss, if you're anything like me, you will do better diet wise when you feel better within yourself.