I am very overweight. I lost 4.5 stone last year in about 6 months, but still needed to lose another 5 stone-ish to be in the healthy BMI bracket. Since Christmas I've put about a stone back on and I don't understand why I can't get motivated again. It felt so good to lose all that weight. I felt healthier, I didn't feel excessively hungry and actively enjoyed the process of tracking food and being careful. Now I've slipped back into bad habits. I eat secretly, whenever DH goes out, as well as normal meals. I don't really massively binge, like you read about people with binge eating disorder do, but will eat a full bag of sweeties and constantly graze on cheese and crackers, or nuts, or bread.... or whatever is about that I fancy. I DO NOT understand what changes in my head to move from the dedicated dieter to secret nosher. Are lots of others like this too or am I wierd? If you are like me, but better understand yourself and why you switch between the two states of mind, could you explain it to me? I'm trying to understand what is going on with my behaviour because I just don't get it.