I CAN'T BLOODY DO IT!

[ChuffChu]

I want to.

I'm disgusted by myself, repulsed even.

I don't want to puff about my own house groaning to bend down to my two young children.

I've done slimming world, Atkins, 1000kcal counting.

And I lost a bit of weight when I was following them. But I gave up and got fatter.

I eat when I'm not hungry, I cram food into my face when it already hurts from being so full.
Why?

I cry every night. I know I don't want to be like this.

Please someone come along and tell me there will be 'A MOMENT' when it all fits in to place and I can do it.

Maybe you're trying to rebel against yourself?

Have you tried, when you're binging, to stop, drink some water, and ask yourself, 'am I really enjoying this?' Because it sounds like you're not, actually.

Have you logged in and started reading dietdoctor.com yet OP?

If not can you pleases? Just for half an hour and then see what you think. Just read some of the personal stories if nothing else

OP it sounds like its "diets" that are making you overeat and binge. This is a natural reaction to starving yourself or even thinking about starving (dieting, lowering your cals, etc). Diets cause negative thinking with food. Food is food. Its only when you eat more than you need that you gain weight. Seeing food as bad and good creates a pyschological barrier to normalising eating.
Could you afford some therapy? If not some books from Amazon, ebay on the subject of overeating and how diets contribute could help.
If we used food just for its normal purpose of nuturing and feeding when hungry only then weight would remain stable. But we use food for so many more reasons dont we. As you see by your post, you start of well planning low cal menus but then your inner self rebels and eats everything in sight. Once you can relearn that food is just food and you can normalise it and see that it is not really good nor bad then you can make better choices.

You would be best thinking about why you overeat and try to tackle it from that angle.

Are you depressed? Anxious? Low self-esteem? Working on the actual cause should make changing your behaviour easier.

Oh my op I was just about to start a thread exactly the same as you.

I hate myself. I look chubby. I have awful back pain. Yet I still self sabotage my diet. Like you I meal plan and cook from scratch and yet somehow I scoff sweet stuff galore.

I'll try that diet doctor. Is it an app or book?

I really, really need to do this.

Loubilou09 I will be checking that out thank you.

I'm having a few health problems right now that definitely are getting me down.

It's easy, chuff, I can empathise. I hope this is the start of something positive for you.

It's NOT* easy

Eating Less by Gillian Riley. I honestly can't recommend it enough. It's aimed at curing our relationship with food, for once and for all. It's an amazing book!

Good luck, OP!!

OP I could have written your post - I am exactly the same. In the past I have lost weight quite easily, it has felt like my head was in the right place and I was completely focused. I wish I felt like that now but I just can't but I'm so fed up of feeling like this.

You can do it but you have to be ready and really want it.
Going against the grain a bit here but I did have a lightbulb moment.
Years ago I had a gastric band fitted and it worked well and I lost 6st, after two pregnancies I started having some issues with it and I stopped losing weight, I was back and forth having it adjusted and trying to sort it out. At the end of last year I saw my lovely bariatric nurse and she told me she doesn't think it's going to work for me any more and I should consider a bypass.
I remember standing in the line to make another appointment and just thinking NO. I'm not going to have more surgery which comes with huge risks, I'm not going to risk not seeing my kids grow up, I AM going to loose this weight alone.
1.5st down in under six weeks. I will do this and I want to do this.
I've tried and failed so many time you just have to be ready I think.

OP if it is useful I have just made this page in my bullet journal. It summarises my research into mindful eating. My goal this week is to follow the checklist/flowchart every time I feel like eating and if I realise I am not actually hungry then distract myself!

Love that oldbooks

Thank you everyone, oldbooks that's great! Mind if I screenshot?

Oldbooks, that's fab! I've got a very long list of why I want to lose weight this time, and actually keep it off! I look at it if I'm feeling tempted to stray.

I am a huge fan of low carb high fat (and the diet doctor!) but I have to say I don't think you should go on a"diet" per se as it will only encourage your disordered thinking about food. You need to change your mentality and stop the vicious cycle. You need a lifestyle change which you can stick to for life.

There is a brilliant book called have your cake and your skinny jeans too which is brilliant for tackling disordered thinking about food - buy it and read it!!

Chuff screenshot away!

I am same height as you and was heavier (18.5 stone) when I had my "lightbulb moment": I had horribly swollen legs and ankles during the heat wave last summer and thought, this just can't go on any further.

I've lost just over 4.5 stone since then, and my only regret is that I didn't do this years ago - that I waited for a medical situation to give me the resolve to make the changes I absolutely knew needed to happen. I feel so much better - healthier, more confident and really pleased with how I have made this change happen. So wish I'd had the sense to do this 10 years ago.

Oh wow LaundryFairy that is amazing! Well done!

I've been using this thread as my 'lightning moment' and keep coming back to it to read through.

I'm been using my cheeky screenshot of Oldbooks fabulous notes.

I've felt ready today to join ww online and have been messing around with the app.

I've also ordered a few of the book recommendations.

I'd say fingers crossed but it's not down to luck is it

Great going Chuff, you sound a lot more positive! I have found my eating has really improved using the "am I really hungry?" flowchart, even DH says he has noticed me eating less. It is amazing how much I was eating mindlessly. I have been trying to actually enjoy and taste food rather than shovelling it in! Next step: low carb!

Chuff I'm 3 weeks into the. Body coach plan and it's totally changing my relationship with food. You're never hungry , healthy diet, manageable exercise . I'm honestly thinking this is it for me. Worth looking at if you've not considered it. I used to binge eat and comfort eat massively and have tried every diet going .

That's fantastic, Chuff. And don't be put off if one approach doesn't work for you - there are so many ways to go about this, and once you find the right one for you it will seem so much more doable.

If it would help/if you're interested, ChuffChu, the next low carb Bootcamp will be starting on 6 February.

That's a great update. Good luck!

Chuffchi,
I'd love to be your height and weight!
Please please don't feel bad about yourself:
I've lost 4 stone 10 lbs since September last year on The Blood Sugar Diet.
Once your body has reprogrammed by cutting out sugar and eating minimal carbs, you just don't feel hungry and can cope really well on 800 calories a day.
Different plans suit different people. Don't feel despairing, you will get there.
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