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A space to talk openly about weight loss journeys and challenges. Mumsnet hasn't checked the qualifications of anyone posting here. You may wish to speak to a medical professional before starting any diet.

Destined to be obese forever!

41 replies

Ohdearducks · 08/10/2016 16:29

I've been fat since 2003 (I think) I was a size 10/12 and thought I was fat back then! I'm now pushing a size 24.
No matter what I do I can't seem to stop eating shit, I crave salt and sugar all the time. I can't stick to a diet because I am undisciplined/weak willed/lazy. I now have a knee injury that can't heal because of the enormous weight it has to lug around all day long.
I've never taken my kids swimming and would love to but I'm ashamed of my body Sad
I had a new baby 5 months ago, I'm ebf her and I'm now hungrier than ever all the fucking time. I want to be slim again I really do but I can't manage more than a couple of days healthy eating before I fall off the wagon and gorge myself on utter shit. Fuck!! I'm not even sure why I'm posting this here, maybe I just need to vent but hopefully someone can relate? Or someone can help me understand/stop my destructive behaviour. I don't know why I'm doing this to myself! I want my kids to have a healthy mum, I want to have energy for them and not pass on this lazy, shitty behaviour Angry

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Ohdearducks · 10/10/2016 15:31

I've tried doing it off my own back many times popcorn but I always give up after a short time because I only have myself to answer to.
I've never been to a slimming group though so maybe it will give me the incentive to lose weight because of the weekly weigh ins and I'll have to answer to the group and leader in a way. Whatever the method whatever I put in my mouth has and always will be my choice and my responsibility nobody else's I'm very much aware of that.

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BowiesJumper · 10/10/2016 16:07

Try starting with small steps. I lost 8 and a half stone and it was mainly the carbs that did it! So yes, stop eating "naughty" stuff- but if you cut out bread, potatoes, pasta, rice etc- that's a good start. Once you start losing, it will become a spur to lose more. That's what I found anyway!

I've put loads back on because I was also starving whilst ebf, but am back losing again now (eventually!!).

Good luck.

Ohdearducks · 11/10/2016 13:37

Saw my practice nurse this morning, she's just started slimming world herself and she gave me lots of tips. I'm joining my next local group next Monday really looking forward to starting!

Ravioli how are you getting on now?

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imjessie · 11/10/2016 14:04

Well done you!!

RavioliOnToast · 12/10/2016 08:07

Morning! I am doing shit actually. Well not horrendous but I'm not following a diet per se. I'm making better choices wherever available. Buying salads and carrot batons to have with houmous. But then I had a toblerone cookie last night Hmm so at all swings and roundabouts Grin

On a more serious note, this is my last week of FT training so I'm starting my local sw on Wednesday morning, and I must must must get the 30 day shred DVD out aswell. I've been feeling really shitty the last few days too, horrible headache, sore boobs and hair coming out in bloody clumps!! I just want to feel normal and happy again

Porpoises · 12/10/2016 08:53

Hi oh dear ducks,

I'm sorry about what happened to you as a child, it sounds horrible.

Have you had any therapy? In my experience a skilled therapist who you click with can make the world of difference.

You're in a vicious cycle because the part of you with low self esteem that thinks you deserve to be punished keeps sabotaging you. But that means however hard you try, you keep having setbacks, which makes you feel like a failure and makes your self esteem even worse.

You said in your op 'i don't know why im doing this to myself'. I think your childhood would definitely lead someone to self sabotage, either with food, or alcohol, or other types of harm. The key is to be able to understand that link deeply enough so that you can have empathy with yourself when you're about to go buy snacks, to umderstand the part of you that does that and help it heal.

Joysmum · 12/10/2016 08:54

Unlike pretty much everyone else so far, I'm not going to mention diet! I think most of us that get obese have tried many diets so dieting isn't the whole answer.

I reckon many of us know what we should be doing diet wise, so the question is why is eating too much/the wrong things more important to us than being healthy?

If we just think about diet, we'll never know why or challenge that negative mindset to allow ourselves to maintain our control, and therefore size, even if we have successfully 'dieted'. That's why so many dieters regain.

So my advice is to keep a thought and food diary. In it you record EVERYTHING to do with eating. By that mean the thoughts about food, even if you don't actually eat.

You need to be recording when you think about food and the context of that. E.g. Where you are, who your with, what your doing, how you were feeling, what foods, how much consumed etc. I had mine set up in columns to make sure I had all this covered.

It wasn't too long until I spotted a pattern of my triggers. I was challenged at 2 periods in the day. The first I was alone, bored, feeling down on myself. The second was in the evening after dinner, with my hubby, relaxed in front of the telly and he'd eat too.

It helped me to know I actually was ok the rest of the time and just needed to focus on making changes to cope with these times.

Those who successfully diet and maintain, their issues will have been knowledge based such as portion control or the types of food and a diet with help with that.

For the rest of us who know what a healthy diet is but can't stick to it, understanding our triggers and combatting them is more important before starting a diet.

Ohdearducks · 24/10/2016 23:27

Sorry I've not been on this thread for a while we've all been unwell including my baby who needed hospital treatment as a result. I hope you're feeling better now Ravioli? How are tot getting on now?Flowers
I joined SW last Monday and started the plan on Thursday, today I got weighed and I've lost 7.5lb!! I'm amazed at such a big loss so quickly, I've set myself a target of 4lb next week. I feel so motivated despite being absolutely dead on my feet looking after the baby so fingers crossed I can keep it up. Thank you for all your input and advice everyone.

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imjessie · 25/10/2016 07:51

Yay ! Well done!

Ohdearducks · 25/10/2016 16:15

Thank you imjessie x

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bubblyone · 25/10/2016 16:55

I don't have the answers. Have also seen people do REALLY well at SW, for some reason.

I'm currently losing, but spent 3.5 years failing to make myself do it. I just resisted. It seemed too hard, or something. Would vaguely start, then next thing I knew I was in Sainsbury's stocking up on Mr Kipling's latest seasonal French fancy and eating all the tops off them or some other weird bingey behaviour. A few WW meetings didn't help, even though everyone was lovely. What got me going in the end was semi-accidental loss of a few pounds. I realised I could eat less and be OK. I started to see glimpses of a shape coming back. Getting into the habit/swing of it is the hard bit, then I think a bit of adrenaline kicks in. The thing that worries me most about you is how hard you are on yourself and how you're so certain you can't do it. I'm sure your brain is convinced if you keep telling it so!

One of my Facebook friends is this guy, Yoni Freedhoff, and I love him because he's so kind and pragmatic about it all. No misery, don't get too hungry, and make sure you still have a life.
www.vox.com/2016/5/10/11649210/biggest-loser-weight-loss

www.thesocial.ca/wellness/health/dr-yoni-freedhoffs-weight-loss-words-to-live-by

Dowser · 27/10/2016 00:21

Excellent posts cats and joysmum.
I like the idea of writing how you feel about food..even if you don't eat it.

I'm feeling quite virtuous right now as I haven't had any sugar today and no gin and tonic either
Shall look up diet doctor tomorrow although have read quite a bit about what dr mercola says about high fat low carb diets
Night all. Shattered .

Ta1kinpeece · 28/10/2016 20:24

Think of when you are 60
what do you want
how much do you want it
taking control of your eating is entirely in your head
nothing any of us can say will trip that switch in your head
only you can

do you want to be he granny going head first down the slide
or the one in the wheelchair at the side

take your pick
then go for it
you have that strength, you just have to accept that you are that strong

chocolatespiders · 06/11/2016 09:04

I can relate to lots of this... I an size 20-22 and this week I have binged everyday stuffing things in my mouth.. felt terrible. Yesterday I drew a line under it and gave myself a talking to, I am not happy at this size.
Yesterday was a good day - no binging just sensible eating. Today needs to be just as good.
What meals are people having today?

FaithAscending · 06/11/2016 10:05

That's a brilliant start Ohdear! I'm a size 16 but my weight has been creeping up. My crunch moment was realising none of my knickers fitted any more! Two weeks at SW and I've lost 7lb, already feeling better.

I would recommend the book 'Brain over binge' to understand the issues behind binge eating (written by a lady with bulimia but relevant to anyone who has binge issues). link here. I found it really helpful. It took a while to click, following the SW plans help me to avoid bingeing because I'm filling up on healthy foods and it gives me accountability.

LEIGH350 · 06/11/2016 12:25

Are you still here, OP?

If so ... calm down. All that's happened is, you are addicted. Don't beat yourself up so much!

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