Braved the scales this morning and FUCK ME!!!!!

[molyholy]

Oh dear. A couple of years I was 15st 5lb and successfully lost weight over the course of a year. I went down to 10st 4lb. Unfortunately, at the time, my marriage was going through a very rough patch. Losing weight allowed me to bury my head in the sand and focus on something else. Anyway - long story short, successfully maintained weight for about a year or so, but after marriage thankfully got back on track (better than ever now), the weight has slowly, slowly crept back on. I have been a big fat pig. No denying. Not watched weight - not cared whatsoever tbh, until now when nothing fits me. I am back in all my old fat clothes. I look at my slim clothes and think oh my fucking god, did that fit me!!!! I would say the worst thing is when I was slim, I didn't appreciate what I had achieved. It was just something to take my mind off my woes. This sounds mad, but as I was going up a dress size, then another dress size, I was glad, because frankly, I associated being slim, with being miserable. But now I am a big fat fucker again. 14st 13lb. There I said it. Well fuck this!!! I know I can do it, albeit under different circs, but I can do it. I have to. Anyone who reads this, thank you. It is boring but needed somewhere to put all my thoughts.

It's not boring molyholy, it sounds too familiar! Although I've never managed to lose all my weight (highest non preg weight 13.7 - lowest in 20 years is 11.2, currently just over 12stone)
You had a lot on your plate emotionally, sounds like you're ready to deal with it now. In 3 months you could be down 1-2 stone, that would make a huge difference sure. How you do it, that's for you to decide but you'll get there, just need to be consistent and patient (if only I could take my own advice!)
It's in your hands if that's the last time you see that weight, today's a good day not bad - best of luck, make sure and read the thread here, there's great inspiration to be found

Ahh cheers Not2b. Just what I needed to hear. You're right. I am ready to deal with it now as I am sat here with my belly resting on my thighs .

Thank you for replying. I feel like this is a crucial time for me and I am ready to tackle this. I finally feel like I've got my mojo back.

So what's the plan of action? I've had a great,motivated month and lost 11 pounds so far! But next month will be tougher

Great that you are so determined

Sounds like me, was 10st 8lb 2 years ago , 8lb away from target.
Was happy in myself so stopped giong to slimming world .
Back up to 14st now the biggest I've ever been.
I know how to lose the weight it's just doing it, I keep next next week so I can eat all the things I think I will miss but next week never come so just getting fatter
I need to do something now !

Oh, this is me too.

I had a beautiful pair of wool trousers that I bought when at my fattest ie immediately post-partum with dd2. I kept them, as I always meant to get them taken in, as they're so perfect, but far too big.

Anyhow, the pounds have crept on over he last year, and I could only fit into two pair of my work trousers. I saw my Beautiful Fat Trousers at the back of the wardrobe, and lo and behold, they fit. Rather snugly in fact.

I HAVE to stop comfort eating shite. This needs to happen NOW, as I've got a nasty injury that means I've not just had to stop exercising, but even walking will be hard for a few weeks, so I need to cut back on my calorie intake drastically just to avoid gaining weight.

As of five minutes ago I am 12st5. I'd like to be 10-10.5st, I need to be at least under 11.5 to be healthy. I stopped eating shite yesterday.

That's basically what I am going to do. Stop eating shite. I have done well this week so far. I think abstinence works best for me, so instead of just having a couple of crisp, I would rather have none whatsoever. 3 meals a day and no snacking is what works for me and I know this. I have put it into practice this week and fully intend to continue. I am glad I got on the scales. It has shocked me into doing something.

Once I'm in the zone, I know I can do it. Might even join a slimming group.

Sorry to hear about your accident Jimmy. Hope you are on the mend soon.

Come join us on the MFP to lose weight thred molyholy, there's a group of us using my fitness pal to combat the weight. I started in January at the same weight you are and am 3lbs away from losing 4 stone

I'm low carbing and using mfp

And running and going to BOOTCAMP. What exercise will you do op? I love exercise. And I can't lose weight without doing it as it keeps me motivated.

No races planned til next year so the running has dropped off over the summer but might have some lucky news next week to motivate me further, fingers crossed