I've been so impressed by the stories I've been reading on here. So many folks are motivated and changing their lives. For some reason I'm finding it really hard to do it, even though I feel desperately fed up with myself and want to feel better.
I've always felt fat. At school I was called ten ton tessie and never felt happy in my skin. About 2 years ago I weighed 13st 9. I'm 5ft 8. My ideal weight is 10st 10. I joined SW and got down to 12st 7. I started the C25K programme even though I hate running. I definitely lost some inches and felt better for it. It was helping me a lot with some mh issues (crippling anxiety issues for years) Then going to SW became tricky due to work commitments and I kept missing sessions. I also began to get frustrated at the class as it was so large the weigh ins alone took 40 mins! I also seemed to plateau at a certain weight so I just stopped going and funnily enough I gained weight. I stopped running as well due to a tiny interruption at the time, but it was enough to throw me off my stride as well as developing a painful knee which has actually resolved. So here I am, two years later, having restarted with good intentions on several occasions, by both eating better and running, only to succumb to snacks, carbs and failing to stick to the running programme. There never seems to be time in the day to do it. I now weigh 12st 11, so I would like to lose 2 stones but it seems so unattainable. I've been told I may need surgery to remove my gallbladder due to a polyp, so you would think this too would kick me up the butt and I genuinely thought it would, but all I've done is worry about it and you guessed it, eaten more rubbish!
I don't drink except very occasionally (I have roseacea and discovered wine set it off badly)
My attitude is all wrong, I know. I'm lazy and want someone else to control my diet. I don't cook well, thus eat too many snacks and fillers instead of proper meals (that said I always make sure the kids eat well), we both work, I am vegetarian. I couldn't do a vlcd and I'm not keen to do a diet programme like SW again. Please give me a kick up the behind. I'd be so grateful for any advice. Thanks for reading. 