I have got literally no willpower, please help

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I am 10st 5 and pretty short 5ft 3. Not massively overweight (according to BMI calculator I can be a max of 10st 1) but still overweight and want to lose it. I am going to start ttc in about six months' time and I would like to get down to 9st before pregnancy if possible (preferably less, I would like to be about 8st 7!). I am big-boobed though (and they don't seem to change with weight, they were the same cup size when I was 8st7 before I went to uni :S).

I am sick of always looking like the fat one in pictures. It is starting to seriously depress me. I look in the mirror some mornings and genuinely feel like I hate myself. I know it's self indulgent and ridiculous.

I have a healthy diet in terms of a lot of vegetables, fruit, wholegrain stuff, pulses etc etc and I don't drink alcohol at all but my problems are (a) portion size and (b) I fucking love cheese, chocolate and generally anything that is bad for me and while my main meals are always healthy I have definitely got a habit of giving myself 'treats'.

I bloody hate exercising as I find it boring (running, exercise classes, swimming etc etc have tried them all) but I know it's something I've got to do. I have a desk job but do a fair amount of walking during the week (try to do my 10,000 steps a day).

After Christmas I was 11st 3 and went on a sort-of diet since then which got me down to the weight I am now but obviously nowhere near enough. I find that diets make me seriously obsessive about food and feeling guilty every time I eat something but yet if I don't count calories I know that I over-eat.

Sorry for rambling post, just wanted a) to vent and b) to get advice. What has worked for other people with no willpower and a love of all things dairy/carby?

Have you tried slimming world?

It works for me because I get weird and obsessive if I have to count calories or weigh or measure food.

tabulah I haven't tried it, no. Is it a point based thing like weight watchers?

I also want to go for a lifestyle change so I can lose the weight and keep it off, so hesitate at the idea of going on a 'diet' per se, as I'm worried once I've reached my goal weight and stop the diet it'll all just go back on

Cut out the cheese & chocolate ( or at least massively cut down ) you'll notice the weight slowly dropping off & that will really motive you :-)

No, I've tried weight watchers...that made me obsessive too, lol.

You eat freely from fruit, veg (including potatoes), pasta, rice, lean meat, fish, eggs , pulses and any zero fat dairy produce (yoghurt, cottage cheese etc).

You get a measured portion of grain stuff (bread or oats and what have you) and one of normal dairy.

The you only count syns (like points) for the other stuff, chocolate, alcohol etc.

It works because firstly all the stuff you can just eat is lower in calories and secondly you make a third of either your portion or your day's food the really low calorie fruit and veg...which automatically lowers your portion size without you having to actually think about it.

I find it works for me because I can just buy ingredients and then make food from them without having to worry about every little thing I'm eating.

ooh that sounds really interesting, going to look it up now, thank you!

LikeICan I know I should, I just don't seem to have any bloody willpower, grrr!

But it's the cheese & chocolate that's the problem - you have to cut down on that if you want to lose weight. I know it's hard ( I love them too! ) but I went from eating chocolate 3 times a week to just having a bar of something once a month - the weight fell off. just try your hardest, ( plus it's no good for you anyway )
Good luck

LikeIcan yes I will absolutely try my best.

I totally refuse to eat low-fat cheese due to the amount of crap stuffed in it, so I will just have to go cheese-free for most of the week. :)

I know I can do it, I just need to try!