Why am I even bothering?? Confidence is sooo low and no bloody wonder :(

[prawnypoos]

Trying to lose a bit of weight and yes I have let myself go since having DD 9 months ago. I've got about 5 stone I lose and have really Ben trying hard to shift some weight.

I'm not going on any special diet, just eating healthily (less bread, less junk more fruit, veg and salad etc) and take more exercise. It worked for me before, I know it will work again I just need to stick with it.

Anyway have come to see my gran today with DD and I can see she is looking at my tummy area in discust. She's just staring at it making me feel stupidly uncomfortable. Anyway she did us some dinner small portion of shepherds pie, carrots and butter beans. She said that she had some pudding (meringue nest and pineapple - strange combo I know but hey ho) anyway I said that I was trying to lose some weight so I would skip pudding. Anyway about 5 minutes later 'you're over fat you really could do with losing some weight. It looks like it will take a lot of doing'.

I've put up with this shit since I was 4 fucking years old and I'm starting to get mad!! I have been pestered to breaking point over my weight, which, IMO has only made it worse! Does she not understand that, instead of making me want to go on a 20 mile run and eat lettuce for the rest of my days, she is making me want to cry, feel sorry for myself an eat a whole packet of biscuits.

Comments like that just make me think 'fuck it, why bother.' Struggling to muster any self confidence. Think it's gone

hey prawny sorry she has been so rude to you, my grandparents are often very rude about weight and I certainly feel your pain there if they aren't telling me I should lose it they are mocking me whilst I am doing! but, and this is going to sound like a massive cliche, you are doing this for you..noone else! so bollocks to them for want of a better word, even though it hurts you are making these changes for yourself and your own family. and in x amount of time you will be able to say do you know what I did it, even though people put me down or didn't believe in me I did it.. we are always here to chat too, it gets very wearing everyone having an opinion on you and what you should be doing doesn't it. wish you luck and motivation

You poor thing. You're right there are 2 issues, your weight and your self esteem. If you want to lose weight then do it. But do it for your own reasons rather than because some meddler thinks you need to.
do you think you need to, and what are your reasons?
In a few months your dd will be old enough to find her attitude damaging and her comments to hwr wonderful, beautiful mother upsetting. You need to stop them before this happens.
join us on the motivational monday thread - if YOU want to lose weight x

In fact you say youve had this since you were 4. What a shit way to treat a child. Please learn that you're worth more and dont let anyone do this to your dd.
you may be fat. I dont know. I am. But im not disgusting and neither are you.

Completely agree with Stealth. Well said. I'm sure you're lovely, whether you're a size 18 or a 28.

Thank you ladies. I am doing it because I avoid looking in the mirror and I just want to feel comfortable and to be able to wear nice clothes.

I want to be for and healthy for my daughter's sake and yes, the negative impact her words could have on my daughter are making me want to lose weight.

She has already commented on how DD is too fat. She's 9 months old, I don't want her growing up feeling like I did

Well I wouldn't go to see her for a bit and if she asks why, tell her.

Otherwise, go for it. Getting fit is the thing, being thinner is a side-effect. The best revenge is to live well.

Agree beast. It'll be a big fuck you to everyone who doubted me. I've done it before so ill do it again. Just plenty of walking a healthy eating.

I do look in the mirror and feel daunted sometimes.
My thighs are like tree trunks, my tummy is like a big wobbly jelly and it looks like I have an extra pair of tits on my back :(.

Why didn't I inherit the 'ping straight back into shape after you've had a baby' gene? I had mild PND and I do (did :) ) comfort eat

As you say you've done it before, you know how. Remembet th a t feeling of stsrting to notice your clothes are looser, starting to feel that youre on 'the way down'? That could be you in a fortnight

As you say you've done it before, you know how. Remembet th a t feeling of stsrting to notice your clothes are looser, starting to feel that youre on 'the way down'? That could be you in a fortnight

Yea! Thank you stealth! I always remember desperately trying to keep my trousers up at work because they were too big! They looked ridiculous!

You can do it, I'm aiming for the ridiculous trousers look as well.

I did it a few years ago so I know I can do it again! And this time I'm going to keep it off.

I have 8 stone to lose to be the right weight. My current weight loss motivation is my DD. I don't want her to have an unhealthy lifestyle. I don't want her to be fat. But most of all, I don't want her to think about it!

And I never want her to here the things people have said to me...