Hello all
I've been lurking on this brilliant thread since the start and have finally got time to post! It's been so inspiring for me and has come at just the right time.
I've always had a difficult relationship with food and weight (inherited / learned from my mother) and as a teen / early twenties was anorexic (for a year) and then bulimic (for about 3 years). I had help with that and managed to get myself over the bulimia and to a healthy weight, but since then I've always had this 'story' in my head that "I can't go on a diet because I'd end up going back to eating disorders, better just to eat a little of what I fancy and be sensible".
But frankly that was an excuse.
After 2 children I'm bigger than I'd like to be and wasn't being sensible. I wasn't 'fat' (5'10" and 11st 4lb which put my BMI in the higher end of the 'healthy' zone) but I was picking at their chips, eating bits of Easter egg, scoffing leftover sausages and hula hoops, all that kind of thing, and drinking too much to boot (not massively too much but more than I should). It left me at a size 14 with a roll of fat around my middle, a muffin top and a wobbly tummy - which isn't a terrible size and shape to be but not what I'd ideally like to be.
Last Wednesday a friend and i went on a playdate to the zoo with our younger children and when we stopped for a coffee and a cake she said "Oh I can't I'm on Weight Watchers, I have to track everything I eat." She's about the same size as me so we did the whole "but you don't need to lose weight!" thing and she said "No but I'd love to feel happy in a bikini on holiday this summer and not be afraid of the photos being on FB."
I got home and looked up the WW online thing that she'd joined with the tracking app for your phone, and realised thought "actually, I'd like to look nice in my holiday photos too." So I joined - no going to meetings for weigh-ins or anything scary, just the most powerful thing of all, for me, which is tracking everything I eat and drink.
By the end of that afternoon I was amazed at how many snacks and 'bits' I would have scoffed but which I didn't because I'd have had to track them on the food tracker. I normally have a handful of peanuts if I'm peckish and when I looked up the number of points
I was astonished.
In my first week I've lost 3lbs, not from being extreme or anything, just leaving out the snacks, being aware of what I eat and making sure I don't "accidentally" cook my boys too many chips!
I've still enjoyed a few glasses of wine and eaten pasta although I'm now endeavouring to have either lunch or dinner carb-free each day, which helps. It's also helped me with portion sizes as I was cooking myself the same amount of pasta as I was doing for DH and when I weighed what I'd normally cook it was about 150g of dry pasta!! So that's been cut down to about 80g now, which is fine if you eat slowly and chew properly instead of shovelling, which I was doing. And although I'm peckish quite a lot I'm snacking on apples and carrots so I'm being much healthier than normal.
Honestly, I'm amazed at how much better I feel for taking control. It's not easy but this thread has kept me motivated and I love that phrase "choose your hard"
. Brilliant!!