Gulp. I always try to stay bright and breezy on here so I feel like someone at an AA meeting confession saying I'm WorkingItOUtAsIGo and I have a problem. I've been on pretty high dose steroids for the last 14 months and am now in the slow process of coming off them. I've had a really rough year and to cap it all I am tipping the scales at just under 13 stone. When you are as short as I am that's terrible.
I look terrible in everything I wear, nothing fits, I spend my life trying to hide my muffin top in jeans and I just feel awful. My self-esteem has plummeted, I'm not going out as I feel so embarrassed. And obviously I am doing no exercise and so am puffing when I walk.
I've never been thin but this is 1 1/2 stones higher than my normal weight. The steroids have just seemed to take away any control I had over eating too much and at the same time make me want to eat endlessly. The first few months on them I actually lost weight as I was being so careful but then something switched and I rapidly put on all this weight.
I've got to do something - but what? How can I overcome what feels like a complete overeating disorder? I have no self-control.
I have a significant birthday in 6 months time and I just can't celebrate it at this weight. Could I lose three stone?