I started a full-on diet last week. Having being in denial about my weight gain for the last two years, I realised last Monday that I am developing a double-chin, which sent me shrieking around the room, but was the final straw I needed.
I weighed myself last week, on scales belonging to someone else, opened a FitnessPal account and registered my weight at 187 lbs, with a goal weight of 168 pounds.
I've been doing really well on the food and exercise front for the last week, coming in slightly under my calorie goals most days, not exceeding on any of them, although it has taken a lot of will power. So I was feeling positive about weighing myself this evening, on my newly bought scales.
Except I must have completely misread the electric scales at my friend's house, or misremembered the reading when i converted it from stone to pounds for Fitness Pal (more likely), because I actually weigh 202 pounds!
Suddenly, my goal feels unachievable. It's going to take a lot longer to get there, which means staying strong for a longer time and while I know I won't feel hungry on my current regime (1400 calories), there doesn't seem to be any room for real treats (2 clementines is not a pudding, sorry, but it isn't).
Going for a bath now and hoping that I'll wake up feeling a bit more positive, but feel like crap at the moment and needed to get that of my chest.