Could I have a weight related slapping with a wet fish please?

[neverputasockinatoaster]

I really really really need to know what is wrong with me.......
I am 44. I weigh 16 stone and I am 5 foot 2. As you can imagine this is NOT a good look.
I have struggled with my weight since I was at Uni where, I now realise, I was actually an acceptable weight for my height and shape and looked OK. However, I was heavier than my friend and I began to diet.... epic mistake as it has led to the past 20 years of me getting larger and larger.
I am now at least 7 stone over weight. I look old and tired. My joints ache. I cannot run around with my kids. I cannot find clothes to fit and thus I look like a frumpy old woman.
Today I took the DCs to soft play and sat and made a list of pros and cons of weight loss. The pros list was huge. The cons contained 4 items and they were all fear based.

In the past I have tried SW - lost 3 stone with that before I got PG with DS. I was less successful with WW. I know I get really resentful when I go to official groups....
I am currently trying hypnotherapy - Paul McKenna's stuff makes sense to me with the 4 rules but I get so disheartened when I look at how far I have to go......
I just need a good slapping I think!

Not sure what advice to give but didn't want to leave your post unanswered. I think you're very brave to have posted. Sounds like SW did work for you so maybe go with that again? Also, can you incorporate any excersize into your life. Just walking could be good to get you started and give you the head space to decide what you really want out of life and how to achieve it.

You could try starting a blog to help with motivation. My Fitness Pal as an i phone app can help keep you on the straight and narrow. You can keep a check on calories etc that way.

Remember, it's all about one day at a time. Try not to allow yourself to dwell on how far you have to go. If it takes 2 years it really doesn't matter. In the big scheme of things it'll be no time at all.

Also, have you tried visiting your GP. They might have something more useful to say than me!!

Good luck.

No slapping. I am 39 and at the start of the year I also had 6 or 7 stone to shift. I have now lost 3 1/2. I feel younger, fitter and can actually start to envisage a day when I won't feel fat!
Take it a day at a time. Focus on making what you do eat good for you and doing exercise too. Reward yourself every half a stone and good luck. You deserve to feel and look good!