Hi Shake
I am so sorry things are tough for you at the moment.
I have struggled with my weight for 20 plus years but finally have some hope that I am on the right track having seen a clinical psychologist on the NHS. She told me I can do it, and I believe her. It is not impossible and the more I eat healthily the better I feel and the less I am tempted to eat rubbish food or over eat. It is not easy but I feel so much more positive.
You can do it, you can conquer this eating, I feel sure, - maybe you need some help to do it.
I really hope you will get whatever help you need.
Could you get some counselling for your depression? I think it might help to support your good strategies for healthy eating. It may be that you need to work out where the depression comes from or it may be that you know where it is from and need to move on, and not allow it to control you.
All the strategies of stuff like not buying food you don't want to eat etc, not shopping when hungry, and stopping before you over eat are all really helpful.
I wonder if the motivation to change has to come for a large part from within you - that is something that Gillian Riley talks about in her book "Eating Less". Because when you feel tempted to eat rubbishy food that has virtually no nutritional content, if you are doing it for others etc, you can be tempted to just give in. If you are doing it for yourself then you will have more motivation I hope ? maybe you need to love yourself enough to treat yourself right. You are worth it.
Nurture and look after yourself.
It does really help to know about the nutritional content of food etc and what is good to eat. If you don't know this there are probably lots of books or classes or groups that can tell you what is healthy. My problem was not this; I know what is healthy but just ate junk and lots of food! I could not resist temptation. Now I can, I learnt that if I just said no to food sometimes then the feeling of wanting it actually went away! I have started to make healthy choices, like an apple instead of a cake. NOT all the time but most of the time. I still have a long way to go! I am obese, not just overweight!
Shake, my advice is don?t debate with yourself. Decide ahead of time what treats you will allow yourself and enjoy them. If someone turns up at work or whatever with a load of cake you weren?t expecting, just say no thanks, you weren?t expecting it, you don?t need it, so politely decline. I used to eat cake for everyone?s birthday at work and I really didn?t need it! Anyway, I am rambling, I wish you all the very best with your journey.