Unless I eat what I want when I want I feel deprived...how did that happen? I think Ive become an emotional eater :-(

[Gravity1]

I know its a cliche - been slim all my life until my 40s and then, in 7 years, nearly 2 stone has gradually gone on. I have had 2 DCs in that time which possibly hasn't helped! And I used to run, but pelvic floor issues mean I no longer can. I am now officially over weight.

But the main problem is I eat TOO MUCH SHITE and drink way too much wine like its my last drink. I am 'treating' myself little and often all day, every day. I feel so miserable and deprived if I try to diet.

I need to return to sensible drinking and eating patterns yet don't know how. Some days it feels like food and wine are all I have in my world pleasure wise (which is actually totally self pitying and I am embarrassed to admit it.)

What to do? Why and how has food become such a crutch?

So what can you substitute the food and wine for? Presumably there's a good reason why you feel food and wine are all you have pleasure wise - what else could you get/have to fill that self-gratification need (which you shouldn't feel embarrassed about - it's a very human need; we all have it)?

What else are you going without that is maybe prompting the "hard done by" feelings? Not necessarily material/tangible - do you have a job you enjoy, enough friends, a social life etc? Because if you're feeling you don't have and need some pleasure and are using food instead, chances are that's because you genuinely are lacking in some pleasure/reward/self-worth somewhere.

Well Im a bit of a martyr in some ways - Im a SAHM, and aspects of it I do love, and Im grateful I can be, but I do find it so very bloody tedious too...tho DC2 off to school Sept so hopefully change is in the air!

DH has no sex drive at all so very very neglected in that department, but then feel too podgy now anyway. A whole other thread that one.

Im just surprised at myself at having fallen into the over eating trap.

Yes, hassled, I need more in my life I think.