Help me get off this mouse wheel please

[IDontWantToBeFatAnymore]

I need to lose 2-3 stone and have lost about 9lbs so far since January. As usual I lose about 4-6lbs the first week then settle down to 1-2lbs a week, put on 1-2, stay the same, lose heart, eat, hate myself, give up. Well no more. I really have to get this weight off. I feel I look matronly but health wise with my genetics if I don't lose the weight I will be lucky to see my grandchildren grow up.

I have tried Pig2Twig, SlimFast, missing breakfast and lunch , giving up stuff.

At the moment I am not doing anything really and have the kids off school for the next 3 weeks so using that as an excuse to not diet. I don't exercise officially but did go for an hours walk to the shop the other day. We have a rowing machine but I keep forgetting we have it .

I know only I can do this but right now I feel I am a failure at everything. Plus a bit of me hates the fact I am shallow enough to care but also my dh worries about my health but I love his little tummy he has grown and thinks he shouldn't care about my weight when my body has given him children.

I think Paul Mckenna is great for motivation, try listening to it every day.

I found pig2twig too restrictive, slimfast and missing meals not a good idea.

I'd recommend logging all food on myfitnesspal and trying to eat 100g protein plus 5 portions of veg a day, and not worrying too much about how much you lose each week.

I had forgotten to mention I had tried PM and listened to it last night before going to bed. I am in bed poorly but will be listening to it during the day as much as I can. I just want to eat comfort food as I feel so ill but also can't face eating . DS made me some toast but it wasn't very nice. DH makes lovely toast. I have got a Lemsip too.

Do you exercise? Like really exercise.
C25k or something similar, very good for motivation. Once you start to get fit you'll find you want to eat better.
Diets don't work in the long term, you have to make a lifestyle change and stick to it.

Not for a while. I start but never stick to it for long. My latest plan is to walk to the supermarket as much as possible to buy dinner each day. It takes at least an hour to talk there and back and pick a few bits ups. It has a hill coming back so I figure it does count.