I have lost 10lbs so far but need to lose another 28-30lbs. I am sat here feeling hungry and realised it is not hunger for food but an emotional hunger. If I ate something I am not sure how I would feel. Probably annoyed I am letting food control me again, embarrassed and ashamed at how pathetic I am. I would feel I am fighting against a non-existant enemy and only hurting myself and not the people I think I am. It then becomes a battle as I can't tell if I am really hungry or not and then give in and feel shit but if I don't I get upset like I am not in control of my own life again.