Just wondered if anyone had similar experiences and how they overcame it...
I developed problems with binge eating a few years ago when I was very unhappy with a stressful job, was doing it almost every day for a while but things got much better once I left that job and I lost most of the 1 1/2 stone I'd gained. The thing is, it hasn't completely gone away and it's started happening again, about every week or two.
e.g. today I had normal meals and snacks during the day. Then on top of that I have eaten this evening in a short space of time: a whole packet of Hobnob biscuits, a whole big bar of Green&Blacks chocolate, three packets of crisps, two yoghurts and about half a jar of Nutella straight from the jar (basically I ate all these things until there was no more left). I feel sick and stuffed and ashamed of myself, and my mouth is sore. But if there was more food in the house I would try to eat the same all over again. If the local shop was still open I would probably go out and buy food now. I just feel numb and helpless and as though my body just does this while I sit back and watch. There was nothing particularly bad that triggered it, just feeling a bit down and tired and anxious.
I really wish I could stop doing this. I literally seem to have no control over it, and I know how ridiculous that sounds. I'm not overweight but am a little heavier than I'd like and feel this can't be good for my health, and most of all I am so angry and disgusted at myself for my lack of self-control.
Sorry this is so long, I just wanted to write it down really because I can't admit it to anyone in real life.