falling off the wagon

[amiheartless]

sorry self indulgent thread, Its happened!! again

always does I'm kicking myself right now, I've been under a lot of stress this week, its always triggered by emotion. really pissed off I alwyas sabotage myself, just wanna do well and be thin Argh!!!!!!

sorry rat over, feel free to have a rant of your own in here

amiheartless don't lose hope. I have started more diets than I can remember, I seem to be forever starting a healthy eating plan and then 2 days late I am gorging on pizza and think 'bugger it' and give up for a few months til I catch sight of my thighs and start all over again. I have about 3 stone to lose altogether.

It pisses me off that I always seem to fail.

However, just one thing has changed this time. I have been healthy eating for 3 weeks now and so far have lost 10 lbs. The thing is, I still have days (like today) where I eat too many treats but I know that the moment I have eaten it I am still working towards losing weight. I don't think about giving up and binging every day because I know I am finished being fat if that makes sense? I've had enough. BUT that does not mean that you can't 'fall off the wagon' and still get straight back on the very same day. Someone once told me that the past (eg what you ate this morning) doesn't exist anymore, you've finished being that person, the future is only a projection of where you want to go, all that matters with weight loss is the present, as in RIGHT NOW. Every minute you are excercising or eating healthy you are working towards losing weight. Forget what you ate this morning and take your life back right now. Not sure if I exlained that very well but it really struk a chord with me and made me realise that I was giving up at the first hurdle. Now I just eat healthily when I can and don't beat myself up when I don't. It seems to be working because I am not giving up.

Good luck. You can do this!

At the start of my diet I ended up spitting food out. I'd take a bite of something, and think, did I actually want to eat that?

Also intially anyway don't buy anything you don't want to eat. The kids haven't had crisps or chocolate for ages, buying loads of those school bars as they love them and I think they are yuck. When I cook pasta I cook just enough so I'm never tempted as there is only just enough for the DC, even if it means that I have to cook DH some more later.

I suggest you eat whatever you want, anything, and log it into foodfocus/myfitnesspal. Doesn't matter how much you are eating initially. But once you realise how much it is you'll naturally cut back. It doesn't matter if you ate the pizza. You'll be full for a while and you'll do better tomorrow.

Also I recommend treats that come in individual wrappers - i had a box of lindor and DH gave me one each night if I had calories left. And you know, the first (and only one) tastes best.