Hi everyone, this is me needing to rant so hopefully I can move on. I have adhd and ocd. So a natural overthinker with obsessive thinking.
My wedding was 4 weeks yesterday. It was planned exactly how we wanted it. Unfortunately my family didn't get the memo. It started with cancelling my makeup artist and not finding a hair stylist because my sister/ maid of honour said she would do it. She did a trial before on me, my other sister/bridesmaid and herself. I was really happy with how I looked and so I agreed. Me, my mum and my husband needed to set the marquee up the morning of the wedding so things were quite chaotic. My sisters decided to stay at my nans where all our things were being stored. I said as I couldn't get there until 10.30am and I had to be at my wedding at 2.15pm they would need to be completely ready so that I could have help and not feel stressed out. I arrived at 10.30am to find them both in their pyjamas. One with makeup done and one with hair done. To cut a long story short I ended up doing my own hair, makeup and get into my dress alone while my mum and sisters were concentrating on themselves. I got into my wedding car angry. I'd forgotten to put my perfume on, I wasn't happy with my makeup, my clip wasn't in right and my veil was sliding down. They all looked so much better than me. When I arrived I was so excited to marry my best friend I forgot about what I looked like. The ceremony went really well. Apart from at the end I looked over at my family and my stepdad was sunk in his chair on the front row, arms crossed with a moody expression. I had asked the photographer to take pictures from the front so that I could see guests reactions. I guess that one is on me. We started to have group photos when it was actually my now sister in law and her family appeared after she told us for months she wasn't coming. My mum asked for the picture of her, my stepdad and me first as he wanted to leave. I was quite happy as I didn't want to see his grumpy face any more. Everything went beautifully for a little while. We went to have couple photos and they turned out better then I could of imagined. We went back to the guests. A few minutes later my stepdad came back to the venue but sat in the car park for over an hour in plain view. So many people asked me what he was doing, my mum kept leaving to go and speak to him and so he became the centre of attention. Apparently he is socially awkward. Family members started to leave from 7pm and by 9pm almost everyone was gone. As soon as my nan and aunts left my stepdad came back into the venue. He went to the toilets and strided out with both hands in his pockets. I asked if he was okay and he said he guested. I asked if he was picking my mum up and he said I've been sat here for an hour and a half. My husband, noticing the awkwardness came up and asked him if he was okay, when he gave a half asked reply my husband asked if he was sure. Well from that my stepdad got angry and started shouting that my husband shouldn't talk to him like a child and my husband shouted at him in a very blunt sweary way to get lost. This caused everyone to look and my husbands friends pulled him away while my stepdad smirked and walked back to the car. My mum rushes over, asked what happened and left to talk to him. My younger sister then has a panic attack and gets makeup all over my dress. I am then left consoling her while more people leave. Weirdly enough the last two hours were the best ones. The next day I was sent photos from my mum. While me and my husband were having couple photos. My family had taken group photos of themselves all together and yet again, another long story I wasn't in them. My photographer could only fit so many people into photos so I had smaller groups. My mum and sisters had one together. I'm sure it's just jealously but because of their behaviour in the morning this has really upset me. I don't feel like I'm a wife, I now hate weddings and I can't stop feeling how let down I was.