My wedding is mid august and I’m just dreading it. I’m in a constant state of anxiety and feel a bit teary thinking about it. It’s not the DH to be - he’s the best person and always takes half, or more of the share of everything.
It just feels so stressful as it’s a bit DIY, I thought we’d kept it fairly low key. I’ve had a lot going on the last few months, my Dad has cancer and my SIL (brother’s wife that I’m v close to) has just lost her sister who was in her 30s. It feels wrong to celebrate.
one bridesmaid that I’ve known since infant school said some really cutting things about me / the wedding on the hen that were passed off as jokes or teasing, and ganged up on my a bit with my sister it truth it really hurt. I feel like I don’t want her there. And it felt very playground bullying. I think this is because the friend would like to get married and is jealous I’m early 40s. I’ve tried to just pretend this didn’t happen.
I just wish we’d eloped and I’m really not sure who we’re doing this for. I wake up thinking of things we need to do for it and just answer guests’ queries that are on the website. How do I get through this?