Our wedding was last week. It was postponed four times due to covid so as you can imagine it's taken up a lot of headspace in the past three years! We had a baby last year so we even thought about cancelling it at one point.
I had a nice day but some things are spoiling how I feel about the day.
I was really relaxed beforehand until my little girl came into the room as planned. She got completely distressed by the whole thing and then didn't really calm down for the whole of the rest of the day. People took it in turns to help us out and calm her but she was just really upset so I found it hard to relax at all. Once she went to sleep in the evening she was ok and didn't wake and a family member watched over her. This meant the final hour before our ceremony was very fraught and I couldn't really focus on getting myself ready.
Now when I look at the pictures I notice that my dress doesn't fit properly. I was losing weight beforehand (not intentionally just pregnancy weight) and in the past two weeks lost more than I realised. My final fitting was cancelled as the seamstress was sick so she sent me to a different seamstress. In hindsight she wasn't great and all I can see in the pictures is how loose my dress is around my ribs. No one noticed on the day but I will always know how it should have looked.
I know this is probably very shallow and I need to get a sense of perspective but after three years of waiting it's really upsetting me that all I can see in our photos is that I don't look very relaxed and my dress doesn't look as good as it should have. I feel like I spent a lot of money on a day that could have been amazing if I had planned differently.
Has anyone had a similar experience? I feel like it should have been the best day of my life so I feel a bit guilty that's not how I feel about it