Hey everyone. Just looking for reassurance really. My fifteen month old was exclusively breastfed (that phrase makes it sound like I'm being smug but I'm not!) and it was very hard to get her to have food after she turned 1 as I'm guessing she didn't need as much, so recently I started force weaning her as she never naturally dropped any feeds at any point (even with the introduction of food!). I've kept her bedtime and bedtime feeds and let her feed to get back to sleep and comfort in the early hours of the morning, however I've stopped all the daytime feeds (mostly, sometimes I'm distracted and forget and let her latch on). Anyway, I have a hypermobility syndrome and the breastfeeding was making it really really bad and painful and with the reduction it has really cleared up and I have some energy and mental clarity back. I'm looking forward to when I can drop even more feeds so I feel even better but I know it is a slow process if you want to do it as pain free as possible.
However I suddebly feel soooo depressed for no reason- the what is life existential kind of depressed. I'm happyish (as happy as a mum on lockdown with no social life can be!) underneath so I'm guessing it is the hormonal shifts but I thought as I'm still feeding her so much, I wouldn't notice a difference.
Should I just rest as much as possible or try and live my normal life?
My question is, will I always feel like this until I stop breastfeeding completely or will my hormones settle back down and then I'll go through the depression temporarily again when I drop even more feeds?
Is anyone else weaning at the moment who is going through anything similar?