I know this May seem like I'm being ungrateful and selfish but I'm scared be although I'm happily married I feel so alone in these feelings. I have 4 beautiful child aged 14, 12, 7 and 19 months. I found out I was preggers with number 5, 8 weeks ago and had to tell my children as pregnancy knocks me for six in the first trimester, all day nausea and tiredness. I work part time and my dh full time. I'm scared, I don't even think I want another baby, I've got my scan on Wednesday and can't get excited. I won't tAlk about this baby at all and can't bring myself to think about it. I feel so depressed and alone as my dh and children are very excited and happy. I just don't know what to do. I've not told any family as what will they say, they thought we were mad having 3&4. I'm genuinely scared what family, friends and my work colleagues will think and say. I'm so down and he nausea isn't helping. I'm 12 weeks and 2 days pregnant but the thought fills me with dread. What is wrong with me, I'm crying as I type this as I can't think of anything but I'm letting so many people down and what if I can't cope. Any advice would be much appreciated xx