I must be the most stupid unlovable person. I realise that most people including my kids only contact me when they need something otherwise i won't hear from them. I have no one to speak apart one friend who live in my home country. Here in the uk i know a lot of people but like i said they only contact me when they need something. Co parenting with ex husband is a joke apart barking orders to me he is not much helpful, he doesn't even know what is happening with our oldests, there is no point talking to him as since the oldest are over 18; he told me that i don't need to contact him. Our eldest
had to move out where he was living with his girldriend as they broke up, did not want to tell his dad so he rented a studio i ended helping him with the rent (as he was a student) and he has not much disposable income. They are now back together and son just finished his studies and found a temporary job and he is moving to a new flat that he is sharing with a friend. Our second kid has decided that he really doesn't like his uni course so he had applied to a new course in September and will start again in year one which his das is not aware despite i told our son he need to talk to his dad as i can't afford to pay the ini by myself, at the moment we are sharong the cost 50 50 despite ex husband earns double than me.Our daugher who is under 18 is being very rude and thinks she can do what she wants but on this one for once he is in agreement that if i punish her by removing her phone it won't authorize her to have it if it is his weekend with her, before he always told me she was very good at his place and he had no issue with her so he did not agree to phone being taking away. Turn out she was as bad at his place and he could not control her either. All this is really stressing me out and to top it up work is stressful as well with a new manager who is nit picking everything. Regarding my friends, as i said they only contact me when they need something, they never rang me, always me so i stop ringing them, i met two friends in the street on separate occassion, both said we should catch up i told them to send me a text when they are available and of courae total silence. Best friend is more or less no contact she was my husband younger sister but it seems being friend with me is now an issue despite the break up was my husband decision; he was bored with me and wasn't attracted to me anymore. She was a witness of his despicable attitude and agreed what he did was really wrong and that i will always be part of their family. Guess what not true when ex husband broke up with the one he left me for and introduce his new gilfriend, everything change and i barely any contact with them, they hated the first girlfriend but likes this one. I am sorry for rambling but i am feeling so stress by everything.