Dream interpretation *trigger warning* Sands related

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Sometimes dreams wake me up because they're so sad. This is one that woke me up this morning.

Now I could have easily interpreted it if any such thing or close thing had ever happened in my family. But it hasn't so the dream is a complete mystery.

I dreamed that my older sister, who I have been NC with for 27 years, had just given birth to twins. I was looking after them, but one at a time. They were tiny, about the size of a kitten. Each twin just withered and died as I was looking after them. And although I was distraught with grief, everyone just seemed to accept it as inevitable.

Any ideas? 😔

(Channels Dr Melfi from the Sopranos).
This is not about babies. The babies represent your relationship with your sister. They could also represent the love you once had for one another.
Your relationship has withered and died like the babies and you felt tremendous grief because you still love your sister deep down.
We only grieve for the people or things we love.

Part of you regrets going NC even though everyone else has accepted it now (the other people in your dream).

Another idea: the babies represent what you feel your sister offered you in the relationship. The babies withered and died because what she offered you was not adequate.
In the dream you are mourning the loss of the idea of what you wish the relationship had been like.

Hmm interesting, it was almost like I was given the babies to look after and I was upset about what happened but my sister didn't care, and they all knew what would happen but I didn't 🤔

And I loved her when I was a kid, and looked up to her as an older sister, but she's a narcissist and quite deliberately tried to destroy me. She almost succeeded and now I hate her. So maybe I am finally letting go of the hurt?