Whyhaveidonethis · 07/04/2019 14:08
I work on ambulances. Yesterday I went to a 94 year old man. There was nothing we could do so we called his family, made him comfortable and left him to die in peace. He would have died within a few hours I am sure.
Last night I was sound asleep and all of a sudden I was in the room with that old man. I was sleeping soundly, then I was suddenly thrown into a dream. It lasted seconds. he immediately stopped breathing and the monitor went to 0 and someone, my crew mate said "he's gone," and my body jolted awake. It felt like someone jumped into my body. I lay there with my heart racing, panting and slightly scared. I'm never scared.
I couldn't get to sleep for ages. I woke up this morning and I just feel so weird. I can't explain it. I deal with death and dead bodies daily and it never impacts me. This wasn't a bad job, it was a difficult one but not a bad one.
I'm trying for a baby and I kind of wonder if it's linked. Who knows. Anyone got any ideas or heard of anything like this?
BlackSatinDancer · 08/04/2019 01:33
People who say they 'Astral travel' often describe their spirit returning to their body with a jolt.
It could have been a vivid dream brought on by the events of the day or you could have 'astral-travelled' and been remote-viewing 'the man's life.
I know people who claim to regularly travel during sleep. I have never experienced it but do not poo poo when people say they do.
reenchantmentofeverydaylife · 08/04/2019 01:35
My thought is that it's probably unusual never to have felt impacted by the conditions you see in your job. Sooner or later something was going to hit you. Perhaps now that you're TTC the deep significance of the relationship between life and death, and the potentially disturbing fact of the mortality of yourself and any children you bear, is hitting you. Your unconscious might be sending back distressing feelings from your job that you usually have to avoid consciously registering and feeling, otherwise it would interfere with you making a living. I'd say to feel even occasionally impacted by the work you're doing is very different from never or hardly ever feeling that there's something powerfully affecting about working with the dead and the dying. What might you have had to not feel in order to get on with your job all this time? Asking that question and thinking a bit about what you might not have been feeling will probably connect somehow to your dream and the feeling it left you with. I'd go so far as to say that the sensation of someone jumping into your body is your own repressed feelings from work over the years suddenly being connected to your conscious awareness. My training taught me that the mind and body can only block out feelings up to a certain limit, beyond which they push back. And when they do, it can be very overwhelming.
breadzeb · 08/04/2019 01:51
You had a dream about something relevant to your day. That's quite normal.
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