This is my first time in this forum - I'm posting here because I need to get my thoughts out my head and I don't want to post in my usual places.
I may talk in riddles but again this is for a reason. At some point I will come back and explain and hopefully I will be able to say I am talking bollocks but there's a part of me that thinks I may be right.
So many times recently people have assumed I've been talking bollocks but I have been proven right - I'm hoping this time this is not the case because I do not want to contend with the implications.
The wheels are in motion I cannot stop them. I have just read a few threads - this is the right place.
I believe in everything happens for a reason I believe in that we have a predetermined path I believe that our dreams are probably glimpses of our destiny. I believe in karma . I believe we are meant to learn lessons sometimes the lessons are for us - sometimes the lessons are for other people. I believe we always get an easy lesson - a warning maybe - but if we don't listen and learn the lesson becomes harder. Sometimes we get good luck maybe inadvertently we have learnt a lesson . The hard lessons we see as bad luck!
Somewhere along the line we have made these choices. Sometimes we are conscious of these choices and We think we are doing something for a particular reason only to find out a bit later on that it was for an entirely different reason. Other times less so maybe our thoughts -maybe are actions - maybe when we are feeling shit and pissed off we send out a vibe that eventually comes back to us.
I believe in angels. I believe in fairies - not sure if these are the same - maybe fairies are the kids version I don't know - but I told my kids fairies live at the bottom of the garden even though we cannot see them!
I believe we get messages all the time. I believe we have the ability to see things that are not there - some of us are more in tune to this than others but we all have the capability but we have to believe first. Messages come in all shapes and sizes from the song on the radio that has a special meaning, from the dropped glasses, from the robin in the garden. From the computer glitch at a certain time, from the numbers on a clock, from a random person in the street - these are messages from angels from loved ones no longer here with us - my mum sends me messages all the time - through my kids through people I know. She is always with me - mum I know x.
So I am hoping to god I Have got this wrong - sometimes I have got things wrong - I'm still learning all this stuff but I want to learn it all because I believe it is real. I want to learn how if we read the messages correctly and pay attention to ourselves to the universe we are in heaven on earth. I believe we have been given everything we need but in the name of progress we change things, we think we are making things better more advanced but are we really. I believe life is meant to be simple to be enjoyed to accept what we have and not constantly want more want better - this is what takes us down the wrong path.
Sometimes if we are lucky we may get put back on the right path but we have to view the circumstances through which this comes as luck when many would see it as anything but!
I describe what i have been through and still going through as hell. Although one part I do describe as luck. Currently I am not sure where I'm at. I feel I have been through enough - my kids have been through enough - we have had some harsh life lessons but I can see the good from these. But we/ I do not need anymore although maybe I think somebody else thinks we do. Because some people haven't learnt from the lessons been presented to them and so the stakes become higher. Maybe I have learnt my lessons too late who knows?
This is where I start talking in riddles - maybe this will give me another chance I don't always do things as I'm meant too - I'm human I'm still learning - but I believe we have to love unconditionally anything other than this is not love - it is fake love - we have to be kind, we have to be honest, we have to live with integrity. We are allowed to express all feelings even though some people see this as negative. All feelings are feelings - if we surpriess some we suppress all - it would be like only using the right side of our body! Eventually the left side would stop working! Some feel things deeply and so they express deeply. Some deny themselves these feelings.
Our thoughts and feelings manifest themselves in our body if we do not let them go. Or mind and body are linked more than most people believe. I believe we cause our own ills but can also fix these. This is a controversial view I know.
Above all our soul is the key - we feed this, we nourish this, we live by the souls principles and this will sustain us. But this too is not the majority view. Sometimes it's the black sheep and not the herd that we need to pay attention too. But this takes courage - we don't like to stand alone we want to be with people who get us - but when we fo t get ourselves how do we find these people - they will come they will try and lead us in the right direction but we have to be ready.
I very nearly came off my path 20 years ago. Looking back now I can see I was probably being lightly encouraged in a Different direction. But fear conformity convention kept me on this path I had chosen. I don't regret it I made the choices but had I the courage then to probably act on what was in my gut I may have had heaven on earth - all the things I wished for simply! Who knows?
I believe I have had a second chance -still with some huge lessons to learn - I believe we meet people for a reason to learn to grow to face our demons if we are brave enough. But no one knows how long things will last. We are meant to take each day as it comes, treat each day afresh, see it as a blessing another chance to get it right but we don't - we are so caught up in living our complicated lives which we believe one day will give us the life we are looking for that we do not live each day. We are in the past the future but not in the actual day. It's so easy really but we make it complicated. We have enough we don't need more although we want it.
Ive said enough. This is for my babies. I will ALWAYS be with you watch out for the messages xx
All through life we are given choices if we listen to the messages that come in many ways perhaps we get to experience heaven on earth. If we don't we follow a different path - this is our choice