Made the decision this evening and he is booked to be PTS tomorrow morning. 23yo TB, poor doer, terrible feet (well one terrible foot that is totally mismatched from the others), arthritis and recurrent abscesses (in the bad foot), previous pelvis fracture too. For the last 5 or so summers I would say it was going to be his last and then never got round to organising. I went up this evening, horribly lame again from yet another abscess. He is kept in a 6 acre field with automatic waterer but no other running water, electric or hardstanding, loads of mud and he's a horrible patient. 9/10 times I have to go up with 10mo baby in tow - i just can't be dealing with poulticing a difficult horse with no end in sight for abscesses. I feel totally horrible and yet also sort of relieved. It has been a huge struggle for all of us, I'm on mat leave and SMP only so husband is having to cover all costs. Am I making the right decision? It is really based on logistics and finances but I've had him from a 6yo and I know it's going to feel so strange not seeing his goofy face everyday.