Bit of an odd one but no where else would understand and anyone non horsey I talk too just doesn’t get it ! I have one little girl who is the light of my life and my best friend, she is now three. We ride together and she loves it so far, but she’s getting to that age where if I were to have another it would be soon. However I am also in a position where financially I could buy a horse again which fills me with excitement I am stupidly small so could easily get something for myself and my little girl. I am so torn, and my partner is entirely supportive in either decision which almost makes it harder if he was one and done or really desperate for another it would help ! But I haven’t always had an easy life (sob story I know) and part of me wants to be selfish now to give my little girl everything I can and have the things I want, have a bit of my time back and not sacrifice it all over again. The thought of pregnancy and the newborn stages fills me with dread. And when I think of another baby there is anxiety, how would I cope would I be able to give my little one all she needs I know I would be far off having a horse again financially and time wise but I’m worried I may regret it, and my little one will be missing out on a sibling ? She does have lots of cousins and if we had a horse I’d ensure we were at a kid friendly yard too.
sorry for the long old slog but any perspectives opinions stories etc would be highly appreciated.