I lost my own two horses to colic and another illness a few years ago. I ended up sharing a horse who had quite a tricky reputation but I enjoyed him. I've also ended up being paid to ride a couple of others, all either young or with problems. The share horse has really progressed and I've had a lot of fun and his owner has kindly taken me and about etc. I've also invested a lot of my own money into treatments for him and to be honest would need much more to really make sure he was comfortable (if he was mine it would be ulcer scope, teeth, different farrier etc). His owner struggles with his behaviour on the ground and ridden and had offered him to me but I'm swaying more and more to just buying a horse I want, bred to do what I want and that doesn't come with a load of inherited problems and baggage. The horses I've backed myself have been so pleasant in comparison. I just feel so so guilty at giving up this share, both for the horse and the owner as I know they will be in a tricky situation. But it doesn't move well, is quirky, sharp, difficult and is bigger than what I would want for me. Some of this is down to management which I would change if mine but obviously I cant change height or movement or history. I don't know what to do and they have both been great to me, I feel so guilty, yet in a way they've had me paying when other people pay me. Ive been trying to work out a way out for months. I just want a nice horse that is completely my own.