I've got a nice one. I've returned to riding as an adult and have a share in a Welsh d x cob mare. Love her but she can be strong. She had me off, on trot 4 times in the first month. So I've had a total panic about riding in general and especially cantering for about 3 months.
Just could not get the transition and panicked if she did canter. I've done so much yoga and got generally fit but still just dreadful.
My conclusion was I needed to improve my seat so for the last month I've been building up from a few stride to 10 mins walking and trotting no stirrups every time I get on. I'm amazed how natural it feels now, it's almost weird with stirrups!
But still couldn't canter. It was so bad it was comical to watch and totally soul destroying for me and my confidence was in shreds.
So I tried lessons on the lunge - conclusion was weak lower leg so I've done loads of simple calf exercises.
Had a lesson on another horse and the instructor very gently said it's nothing physical, it's all in my head and I needed confidence.
So I very nearly gave up but I bit the bullet in desperation and have started an online fearless riding course.
I've literally skimmed through the first 4 chapters - it NLP stuff and I'm such a cynical old fart but...
This week I cantered her twice in one session, only down one side of the school and I wasn't entirely in control and probably looked like a lunatic riding a very confused horse, but somehow I've reprogrammed my head to what I'm feeling is excitement and joy and not fear. It was great. I was so amazed.
Friday I cantered again and then went over some trotting poles and she started cantering I've them and I LAUGHED! 2 weeks ago I would have cried. And then I took her round and we went over them again in canter . A week ago I could not canter at all.
Today we had another canter and then I took her over the poles, again in canter - and I was smiling. This is nothing short of a miracle.
Went to canter down the long side and she totally spooked and lunged to towards the poles in canter....she loooovvvvvessss poles) and I felt myself go but with my new and improved seat and confidence I stayed in and pulled up laughing at the silly mare.
I cannot overstate how amazing this is and how amazed I am.
I was terrified and now I think it's fun.
And...I'm taking DD on a riding holiday tomorrow for 4 days of reasonably fast riding and now I'm looking forward to it rather than panicking.
So happy.