Just venting. It's just so unfair. My horse is only 19, which isn't young I know but he's fit and physically well. He's been diagnosed with glaucoma and luxated lenses in both eyes (dislocated out of place). So he'll eventually go blind as there's no cure for the glaucoma. There is some treatment that could be done but it's three lots of eye drops a day which I can't manage anyway because I'd be at work and he's a bugger for other people to catch (only likes me, but even then he has had his moments over the years) plus he was starting to chuck his head around in objection to getting them in.
So the decision is made, in discussion with the vet and the eye specialist that putting him down is a 'brave' option to take just now. I couldn't face leaving it because it's just like a cloud hanging over him, and he's a fatty so no exercise will just mean he gets laminitis or something.
I have been feeling sick all week about it, best diet ever, the misery diet and I'm shaking at the thought of it. It's like knowing a member of your family is terminally ill but you get to choose how and when they die.
On the other hand I take comfort from the fact that he'll never know the fear of losing his sight, nor ill health really at all through his life.
I've had him for 15 years and he's had a good life.
But.. if only there was another ending.
I hope he passes peacefully and the final hurdle of death is completed without fear or pain for him.
Just so painful for me. My lovely boy. So so sad.