Im going to try and make this as succinct as possible but bear with me!
I am very lucky to have a beautiful home, to which I am very emotionally attached (DD4 was born on the floor in the kitchen 
). I have a lovely DP, and 4 sometimes lovely DDs aged 14 (next month), 12, 9 & 5. I also have 1 horse and 4 ponies 
. My eldest 2 DD are pony club/riding club/ school team regulars. DD1 is doing well competitively, DD2 is getting there, DD3 is less interested but enjoys gentle hacking and pootling, DD4 wants to ride every day and would spend every waking minute with the ponies if she could.
Here we come to the crux of the matter...
Our lovely home does not have horsey land, so I pay for livery - our 3 elderly (but still ridden) ponies at friend's farm (5 min drive/20 min walk), laid back to the point of horizontal, gorgeous hacking but no school (fields off limits when wet of course) and ponies are often not where we want them to be when we need them (ie dashing to pony club after school to find they have been let out with the cows and are enjoying the life of Riley somewhere over the hills and far away )
DD1 & DD2's "competition" ponies (term used lightly!!) are kept at a posh livery yard 10 mins drive away, which has school, lights, electricity, lockable tack room (all the mod cons!).
I spend a great deal of time every day driving back and forth between all the horses, waiting for DDs to ride and as you all know there's no such thing as just "popping" to the stables, 5 mins always becomes half an hour or more
Total monthly cost for livery is in the region of £750 
I often think "wouldn't it be wonderful to be able to just step outside and have all my lovely ponies just there waiting for me on the doorstep"...
I've seen a house for sale about 25 mins from where we are now but not an area I know very well. Close enough for DDs to still attend their current schools with a 25 min school run (each way). It's a modern bungalow (not my usual style) and one less bedroom than we have here BUT it has paddocks, a manège, 3 stables, a barn, all outside the front door!!!
Price-wise it's on the market for similar to what we would hope to sell ours for, but the monthly livery savings would be immense. Now is the time when it would really make a difference in our lives, while the girls are still at home and into their riding.
But I'm so scared. I'm too scared to even go and view it. I love my house, I don't cope well with change, and although the "system" now is a bit bonkers, it works, and I don't have responsibility for paddock maintenance and muck heaps . I need a life coach, or a kick up the bum, or a stern talking too or perhaps all three 
.