I start the stimming drugs in the next couple of days, and have been warned off exercise whilst on them, so tomorrow is my last lesson. I have only been riding since the summer, but I am making progress, damn it, and now it's all going to dwindle away.
If ivf works, I don't think I could bear to risk anything. And if it fails, I think a lot of joy will vanish from everything for a while, so even though I could start lessons again it won't be the same.
I will miss it. And I will miss my horse even though she is an insolent ancient RS mare who couldn't care less if she sees me or not