Ta here feeling like I'm an imposter

[GizmoIsSoFluffy]

Been a TA for about 13 years now.
Have started to become really insecure and scared over the past few months. Lots of TAs in our school are ex-teachers; I am not.
I can't help but see what they are doing with children and comparing myself negatively. They just seem to know how to teach and handle the children so they listen. I'm useless in comparison.

Just feeling rubbish. Doesn't help that my 1:1 tells me that school is a hell hole. It's anything but, but it hurts as I'm trying my best to help him and make it fun. Sorry, rant over. 😢

Sorry you are feeling like this, but I think it is quite easy to fall into that thinking in the profession so rest assured it’s not just you. If you have been doing the job for 13 years surely you must be able to do it! Maybe try to write down one positive thing at the end of each day? Have you spoken to your line manager about how you feel? Maybe sign up to some CPD that you like the look of? Best wishes.

Totally agree with Honoluli above, keeping a log of positive things (and trying to support your 1:1 to think of one positive thing per day) is a great idea. I've had a rough start to this year (big move and challenging class leading to heaps of self doubt, anxiety, feelings of hopelessness and tears) and looking back on bad days at things I've achieved has helped - it's a cumulative effect. Also, drop an email to whoever on SLT you feel most comfortable talking to asking to set up a meeting - a good leader will want to support you. You've got this 💗

I felt insecure today and also experienced TA. Not previously a teacher but other skills from previous employments. I am sure you have lots of life skills and experience to bring to the table.
Your post making me rethink myself after a wobble yesterday where felt very bottom of the pile!
Also, when 1:1 familiarity can become an issue. In those situations, other adult voices can help. In fact, insist on that if you can as good for both child and yourself. It can feel irritating when a child does what it should for another adult but not you but I am always reminding myself that we should be a team. Make sure (if you can) your team being a team and not just leaving you to it.
Yesterday I felt left out of the loop on something but have given myself a shake as maybe a little of my ego involved!
Good luck!

Remember the years of experience you bring, your insights into the local community, the long-term relationships and trust the parents who have known you for years will have - and you will be the one to know where the useful stuff that only comes out once every few years is stored.