Please help me regain some confidence

[Candelabra75]

I've been primary teaching for five years, love the job but since starting a new job in September I felt hounded out by my manager and told I wasn't up to the job. I ended up having to hand my notice in before they started formal capability proceedings. In the process I was subject to loads of observations and some pretty negative feedback. I had plenty of observations in my old job, including an Ofsted inspection, some were good, some were not so good, but I never felt like my ability to teach was a concern. Now I'm terrified I'll never get another job and maybe everyone was being kind to me in my old job but secretly thought I was shit. I'm passionate about what I do and I know I've had a positive impact on so many children, but I feel so low i can't imagine going to an interview and teaching confidently. How can I get my confidence back?

I’m sorry that your experience has been so awful. Some schools aren’t the right fit - mine is definitely adapting some new practices recently that don’t fit with my style of teaching so I think their days are numbered.

Have you managed to negotiate a reference from your current head? I would suggest that you spend some time doing supply and get around a few schools to build your confidence up. If there is anything that you do need to work on, make this a real focus in the supply so you can test things out etc. but really, the job is so subjective that one head’s “Good” is another’s “Capability”.

Best of luck x

Before reading PaperLanterns response - I was going to say exactly the same.

Be glad you’re out of that school and don’t have to endure the toxic environment. You need to take time for yourself, look at interim roles in the meantime to ensure you still have an income coming in if you don’t have the financial back-up to keep you going until September.
This is the time when schools are recruiting for September starts so go ahead and start applying.

You will thrive in a new environment I am sure. You have the right attitude.

Thanks for the encouragement - it is reassuring to have someone who doesn't know me say that it's subjective. The children made good progress so I can't see what I could have been doing so terribly wrong. Good luck to you too with whatever happens next....