I've never felt the hatred I feel for my job at the moment.
To put it into context, I've taught in many different troupes of schools. Started in east London, went to a private school for quite a long time and ended up as slt. When I had my baby, I didn't want to be in slt anymore, so went back to classroom teaching, but hated the constant emails from parents demanding XYZ. But, still loved teaching. I then moved to state for a year and absolutely loved my job. The school was very relaxed and supportive, there were 2/3 kids in the class who were tricky, but the rest wanted to learn. I loved doing things for them, making them excited etc.
I relocated in the summer, and in turn, needed a new job. However, since starting in September, I just hate the job. The school itself has no money and is understaffed. I don't have the support I need for the children's needs. They don't trust you with anything and everything is checked and monitored to the nth degree. The children themselves are very tricky. Unlike previous classes where one or two were tricky, most of the class are very hard work. Very poor work ethic and don't listen at all. Very emotionally draining and there's always some drama after break or lunch. We are expected to pay for a lot of things from our own money which I don't like at all. The children have destroyed most of the things I've bought and have little regard for shared resources or how their environment is. I've watched them sit there and snap rulers in half for fun because "it makes them feel nice". I know "all behaviour is communication" but I just can't deal with it anymore.
I'm just feeling so down about it all. I used to pride myself on how much I cared and how passionate I was no matter how tough it was, but I just can't do it. I now have a 2 year old and I just don't have the time or energy to spend on my class this is requires. Is it time to give up teaching or do you think a different school might be the answer?