I always become really depressed during the summer holidays.
I spend money every day entertaining my 7 year old daughter and I’m just not good when my routine vanishes.
The depression causes me to isolate and feel burnt out so meeting friends, taking up exercise or eating better feel like too much despite during the school year being very high functioning.
The loneliness and emptiness of my childhood comes pouring back and I just feel so low and awful.
I’ve been trying to change the way I approach the holidays for years now but no matter what, I always end up feeling terrible. Even physically ill.
My DH works 8:30-3:30 but our DD sees me as the default parent and I’m so overstimulated but the constant child-centric days.
DH is jealous that I’m off and he is going to work but I’d rather be going to work at this point!
I’m genuinely thinking about signing up for a summer school next year or not going away on holiday but getting DH to save all of his holiday days to do half of the 6 weeks .
Anyone else feel like this?
Any ideas about how I can work all summer rather than risk unraveling again and losing all of my confidence.
*Ive been having therapy for 4 years to work through childhood trauma and grief for my mum who died when I was pregnant.
- I have ADHD and take medication
- Currently having therapy to help DH & I communicate better (I think he is ND)