So I got my teaching status at the end of 2020 (Jan start) and I haven't started my ECT. I was supposed to at a term long supply placement but on a technicality they didn't put me onto it.
I'm pulling my hair out. I've applied to every job that comes out and got 3 interviews last year and 1 this year. My early stuff was because I had a bad letter but that's been fixed and I'm a lot better on my applications but I get back from interviews that they wanted a more experienced candidate.
My main issue is I've been on my agencies for 2 years about getting me long term work and they seem to never manage it. I don't know if there's something wrong with me or if they're not putting me forward properly. I've absolutely no idea what to do. I can't afford to move without a job to go to. I'm also reluctant to move because of family commitments especially when there are jobs in my area they just don't seem to want me.
I'm so worried that I'm going to just come to the end of the 5 years and then have to leave because I can't get the work. Honestly if that happens I'm really worried that I'll become suicidal because I worked so hard at becoming a teacher and I love doing it so much. Right now the thought of leaving teaching makes me want to cry.