I am employed as permanent member of this staff but have been doing a temporary HOD role for the last year and half and told to apply for it permanently. I had rasied attainment and working toward further extra curricular activities. After all that my school decided to give the post to a external candidate permanently whose lesson observation went that bad there were no notes made by one of their observers because they were mainly being a TA. When waiting to be interviewed they asked me no questions, even another candidate who was asking me loads about the school turned to the successful candidate why weren't they asking questions which they replied they were chill. They then got annoyed that they were on their half term and the wait time for the interview was holding them up.
I am at a loss. I have worked so hard and gave up all my half terms and easter holiday to get students back who were behind on coursework or needed intervention. All the other temp HODs have got their posts made permanent other than me and everyone in the school (apart from SLT) were saying surely was guaranteed to get the job permanently.
I have since had a conversation with my line manager and who was on the interview panel. They said there was 1 point between me and the external candidate when they tallied up the scores. I asked did the last year and a half mean nothing when it came to your decision and they said it was down to the interview. I now feel even worse. I don't know what to do now. They have asked me to continue until the new HOD comes in May. I have been off for three days as my mental health is at a all time low. I just don't know what to do and feel so embaressed to go back into school.