I am an ECT2, started in Sept after doing my ECT1 at another school as a maternity cover. ECT1 was fine, hard work but enjoyed it, things to reflect on and improve but nothing major.
Started my ECT2 and it's a tricky class with lots of SEN/behavioural issues and no TA. (except one child's 1:1) Right from my transition days in July I thought it wasn't a good fit for me.
Anyway, fast forward to December, I have my first term's review and it's a brilliant report and observation was great too, minor adjustment such as get them to write the learning objective before they come to the carpet not after, don't interchange add and plus, stick to one etc.
Once in November, I left the class for 5 minutes with a passing member of staff to have a breather because I was struggling with one particular child who has high behavioural needs. Then, again yesterday, I did the same at 3pm. I broke done in tears in the staffroom and everyone was lovely to me and said they know the individual is hard work but I'm doing a great job etc etc.
Today,
I have been told I am on an informal support plan and my request for another pair of hands has been turned down. Head said I need to get used to having a tricky class because they are in all schools.
He was vague about what my targets will be but said behaviour management of these few tricky children and mentioned English teaching and that I can't rely on my great maths teaching. I have been asking for training on their way of planning and teaching English for weeks but every time it's booked in, it gets cancelled. They haven't seen my teaching of English but have been looking at my planning and especially looking at my books and they aren't showing enough progress.
I have no idea how I will go back into work, and really put one foot in front of the other now.
He said "you have no confidence in your teaching or resilience in dealing with tricky children". I thought in my head, I certainly don't now.
Any advice going forward please?