I have been back at work a total of 2 days and I've decided that's it. I can't do it anymore. I've been teaching 15 years and I'm ready to move on. I actually like the job but I just cannot cope with the constant criticism anymore. My school prioroitisis all the wrong things. God forbid a display is slightly squint or there is a mark on the wall. We have 2 TAs who spend their time criticising everyone and everything. Teachers are judged based on how pretty their rooms look rather than the actual teaching. Fed up of the little digs and working so hard to not feel valued or respected. I was off for a year and came back to feel like I wasn't wanted as the teacher that covered me was better and everyone wants her back (her displays were beautiful but she really struggled with behaviour management). Final straw was listening to a staff member moan to others about how useless I am (I feel useless).
I decided yesterday to start applying for jobs and I already feel positive and like a weight will be lifted off my shoulders. I know it will be hard finding something and I can't leave until I have a job lined up. I'm in Scotland and the notice period depends on length of service so sadly mine is quite long! Hoping this doesn't put employers off. I plan on confronting the colleague who bitched about me tomorrow and telling HT my plan. It will either result in everyone being extra (fake) nice to me or their behaviour getting even worse.
Anyway I'm just rambling as I haven't told anyone my plan yet but feel the need to share! Anyone else in a similar position wanting or planning to leave that would like to share their journey/experience to help each other through? :)