What's the point and sadness

[RosieProbert]

I think I'm just looking for some wisdom / words really.
I've been teaching for 19 years and I think I'm done. I love kids, it's just I don't see the point in anything.
I currently work in the school I went to as a kid ( worked there 4 years now). We lost a colleague who was also my teacher to COVID during the pandemic, then before Xmas another v much loved colleague and my former teacher died suddenly. That really set me off thinking "what's the point?" A few weeks ago, one of the best kids I've ever met died in a very brutal suicide. The whole community is shattered.
I just don't see the point in working myself into the ground like my colleagues did, or making kids think that results etc are the be all and end all to the point where perceived failure is a catalyst to fatal depression.
I just don't know what to do. Everything feels so sad.

It sounds like you've been through some really traumatic events recently.

There is telephone counselling available for teachers through this charity: https://www.educationsupport.org.uk/

I've heard good things about them.

I'd also suggest it might be a good idea to discuss your feelings with your GP.

Also, I'm very, very sorry about your losses.

Thank you for your reply. I've been to my GP today actually.

It's just all so bloody sad and unnecessary.

Thanks for your kind words and thoughts xx

I think there is purpose and meaning in modelling and skilled educating of chn.However, we have to work with the system and at times it simply isn't fair.I also think although at times schools can be all-consuming it is also important to know that at other times we can find pleasure and purpose elsewhere.I hope this helps a little and you are able to reach out on real life also.